smoking cigarettes and laptopping it up...dizzee style

[findanothergirl]

i feel like i get nothing accomplished. but on my days off, it's almost like i don't have anything to get accomplished.
im moving in january.
i'm not really making it a big deal yet, but it's happening.
im nervous.
im excited.
im scared.
im anxious and i just wanna get the fuck out of florida.
i miss spring and fall the most.
GOD!
i have so many emotions running through my body right now!!!
stupid new birth control.
im on day 10 of my fucking period.
doctor says it's normal.
figure that one out.
i feel sorry for mr. nicholas having to put up with my shit, man.
im a bitch like once a month to those i love most, but this shit is dragging the fuck out!
i've been thinking about the baby too much lately.
it hurts so much still.
i just want it to be erased from my memory.
i look at friends with kids and i just want to fucking cry.
ok im stopping this before i get crazy.

♥ heal me angel, i ask. this burning is too much too much to bear. ♥