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Went to beths scavenger hunt bday party for her 18th, it was good but for me some GID issues came up which always kinda ruins a day, hate remembering im so different from how i see myself.
Anyway firstly i'd read a post on a group about how this persons male friends were suddenly using female pronouns with him after having previously used male. I kinda thought that would never happen to me, currently my college mates use female pronouns cos it'd get to confusing with school as my college still has me down as F....and when we out at the pub etc im just me, rory, he, and its cool...althou they do slip up cos they no used to it i always get treated as an equal and as a guy which is the most important thing. Yet today my mate, who is generally weird in picking peoples faults and stuff, he was going on about how i wasnt a guy cos i was in the guys group for the scavenger hunt...he then went on to make stupid comments throughout the day and when i met up with him before the party, saying stuff like "well theres only one guy here" when some lady said hey guys...its just pissed me off.
Also my 3 best mate were in the group for the party, 2 of them are pretty tall apart from sean the one who was saying stupid stuff about me....i think maybe he gets insecure that people see me as male because he is the least tough guy male in our group and likes to pick on me to some how keep me down, keep me below him. Anyway sometimes hanging with the guys does make me feel small and tiny and unimportant kinda unequal which sucks, espeically when we're doing physical stuff. Lucky i do hang with smaller guys like bob and sean who are smaller and do get pushed around a bit....but its just unfair, gets me down sometimes.
I do though think sean will have a problem when i start T if he has a problem already. He is normally fine and is the most understanding supportive friend ive got as far as talking about trans issues and my life goes. But when he sees me beoming more male looking it will be hard for him and i bet he retaliates by constantly trying to remind me that i wasnt born male and basically he thinks people shouldnt see me as male...then again when i talk to him he acts like he understands the issues so maybe he isnt aware of the comments he makes.
Anyway firstly i'd read a post on a group about how this persons male friends were suddenly using female pronouns with him after having previously used male. I kinda thought that would never happen to me, currently my college mates use female pronouns cos it'd get to confusing with school as my college still has me down as F....and when we out at the pub etc im just me, rory, he, and its cool...althou they do slip up cos they no used to it i always get treated as an equal and as a guy which is the most important thing. Yet today my mate, who is generally weird in picking peoples faults and stuff, he was going on about how i wasnt a guy cos i was in the guys group for the scavenger hunt...he then went on to make stupid comments throughout the day and when i met up with him before the party, saying stuff like "well theres only one guy here" when some lady said hey guys...its just pissed me off.
Also my 3 best mate were in the group for the party, 2 of them are pretty tall apart from sean the one who was saying stupid stuff about me....i think maybe he gets insecure that people see me as male because he is the least tough guy male in our group and likes to pick on me to some how keep me down, keep me below him. Anyway sometimes hanging with the guys does make me feel small and tiny and unimportant kinda unequal which sucks, espeically when we're doing physical stuff. Lucky i do hang with smaller guys like bob and sean who are smaller and do get pushed around a bit....but its just unfair, gets me down sometimes.
I do though think sean will have a problem when i start T if he has a problem already. He is normally fine and is the most understanding supportive friend ive got as far as talking about trans issues and my life goes. But when he sees me beoming more male looking it will be hard for him and i bet he retaliates by constantly trying to remind me that i wasnt born male and basically he thinks people shouldnt see me as male...then again when i talk to him he acts like he understands the issues so maybe he isnt aware of the comments he makes.