The stars at night are big and bright deep in your eyes Ms. Vincent.
So my Spring Break has been pretty good so far. On Saturday I helped John move some shit for awhile, which was actually fun I thought. His dad treated us both to lunch at Rico's which was totally bad ass 'cause I <3 Rico's and no one was there which was cool. I had a good time just talking and hanging out. Then we jammed for awhile and eventually Ryan, Wayne, and Lucy came over and we all hung out for awhile doing pretty much nothing. It was rad. After awhile we ended up at some girl Lauren's house who I don't know. I had an okay time, I suppose. I dunno, I always feel weird around groups and stuff. I don't think I talked like.. at all the whole night. We left and Ryan and John slept over. John was being so hilarious, ha <3. Yesterday we woke up at took my amp to Johnny's so Ryan, John, and David could jam. I left kinda early to take a shower and stuff 'cause I was really gross. I got my amp later and then kinda hung around for awhile. My dad, Scarlett, and Carlita went to the rodeo and didn't come back till about 10 and he said we could go to dinner and be refinanced so we invited Lucy to Rico's with us. It was rockin. Mexicans > whites. I had a really fun time hanging out with everyone, though. I'm not really close with Ryan at all but that kid is so fucking hilarious. All of us should hang out more often.
I don't think I have anything planned today. Apparently Amber Drive is playing at some place downtown. Jason said he could maybe get me in free so I think I might go. I only have enough money for Friday (Brandtson!) so yeah.
I've been thinking a lot about myself. It seems it's like all I ever think about. I feel like I'm changing a lot. It may not seem that way from the outside but inside I feel a lot different. I'm really unsure of talking about it. It's just kind of scary. I feel like I'm going through puberty all over again or something. I've really begun to worry about my personality. Being single is kind of weird because you have to be attractive to someone compared to... not being single where you're comfortable with who you are because that's the person your girlfriend is attracted to. But now I'm single and I'm not with someone who's attracted to that same personality. I mean, I'm not changing a ton or anything. But I'm worried that I'm really boring or something. And I've actually really started to think about it. I've started to think of all the reasons some girls are attracted to their boyfriends and it really makes sense. And I realize that I don't possess any of those. To me, I'm just like everyone else. I used to feel secure about myself but... I dunno about that anymore. I dunno, I so don't make sense.
I don't think I have anything planned today. Apparently Amber Drive is playing at some place downtown. Jason said he could maybe get me in free so I think I might go. I only have enough money for Friday (Brandtson!) so yeah.
I've been thinking a lot about myself. It seems it's like all I ever think about. I feel like I'm changing a lot. It may not seem that way from the outside but inside I feel a lot different. I'm really unsure of talking about it. It's just kind of scary. I feel like I'm going through puberty all over again or something. I've really begun to worry about my personality. Being single is kind of weird because you have to be attractive to someone compared to... not being single where you're comfortable with who you are because that's the person your girlfriend is attracted to. But now I'm single and I'm not with someone who's attracted to that same personality. I mean, I'm not changing a ton or anything. But I'm worried that I'm really boring or something. And I've actually really started to think about it. I've started to think of all the reasons some girls are attracted to their boyfriends and it really makes sense. And I realize that I don't possess any of those. To me, I'm just like everyone else. I used to feel secure about myself but... I dunno about that anymore. I dunno, I so don't make sense.