this is my december....

[finchfreak]

bleh.  I realized over the weekend i need to make decisions and stick with them lol.  starting with this one.  I love Josh... i always will, no one will ever take his place, nothing i can do about that, but I CANNOT do this.... he never calls back when he says he will.. never responds to my emails.. so im feeling pretty blown off.. even if thats not the case, ive cried way too many tears over that boy for it to not work out, so even though ive tried this before im totally just blacking him out, im not trying to work things out because theres nothing to work out as far as im concerned, if he wanted it to work hed return a phone call once in a while, he would call ME.

so, oddly enough ive been talking to this guy who ALSO happens to be named Josh lol, ill call him new Josh..anywho i talked to him saturday night and most of sunday, we have plans for a movie date this weekend im pretty excited...hes pretty rad :) it TUESDAY and Josh still didnt even email me...well i emailed him yesterday and even if he doesnt get it i sent it, its his own fault for not reading it or whatever...

Ryan wanted to hang out last night but he didnt realize it until like 1am lol.. but he had me checkout his playlist on his myspace it was a sexy playlist i was like <333333 lol.

i work today till 7, but then i have off tomorrow so yays..then i dont have off till the weekend before my birthday bleh.. well laters for now :P