the moment your realize the most important thing in your life...
"close my eyes just to look at you, taken by the seamless vision, i close my eyes, ignore the smoke, ignore the smoke, ignore the smoke"
-a perfect circle
...is changing and you will never have it the same:
is the moment you realize you just missed the greatest opportunity in your life.
things, i have to say, have been good overall. i've been enjoying the past few days as much as one can. but, i know today--that some other things in my life will never be what they once were, what they once meant to me, what they once did for me.
the thing i loved most in life, i beleive, will never happen again. this is the second time within six months this has happened to me. it's sad, really, when you think about it. a tragedy, admist my own life.
i missed my chance, or messed up my chance somehow, i'm not really sure.
i regret.
and regret, is, above all other human traits, the most painful and common. more so than love, hate, and laziness.
but i knew from the beginning i was doomed, i just let myself slip further and further, with no mind to myself. so for that, i realize i was silly.
yet, i have this weekend to look forward to. alumni game saturday evening, then to qualls apartment with the guys that night, then waking early (enough) sunday to drive to cleveland to see the most influential musician of my time and life.
Trey Anastasio.
i feel this weekend was placed here for me, to realize i still have my self, and my wits about me, and i should just go blow off some fucking steam at a trey show with the friends who have remained the most dear, close, and true
i only ever truly believe in one thing at a time at any given point in my life. and i beleive one thing for certain in my life right now;
in another time, another place, and another circumstance, we would have found each other. saw each other like no one else had--like i had seen her. we would have fit perfect together, but i never got a chance to prove it, i never got a chance to let myself be where i wanted to be. but i had the best time of my life in that short time, more than any other point in my life. i felt emotion which had never known the likes of me.
so for that, i'm grateful. i thank you. i love you. and i apologize for this
"...and for one desperate moment there
she crept back in his memory.
god its so painful, something that's so close
could be so far out of reach..."
so, in case i don't see ya', good afternoon, good evening, and good night
-a perfect circle
...is changing and you will never have it the same:
is the moment you realize you just missed the greatest opportunity in your life.
things, i have to say, have been good overall. i've been enjoying the past few days as much as one can. but, i know today--that some other things in my life will never be what they once were, what they once meant to me, what they once did for me.
the thing i loved most in life, i beleive, will never happen again. this is the second time within six months this has happened to me. it's sad, really, when you think about it. a tragedy, admist my own life.
i missed my chance, or messed up my chance somehow, i'm not really sure.
i regret.
and regret, is, above all other human traits, the most painful and common. more so than love, hate, and laziness.
but i knew from the beginning i was doomed, i just let myself slip further and further, with no mind to myself. so for that, i realize i was silly.
yet, i have this weekend to look forward to. alumni game saturday evening, then to qualls apartment with the guys that night, then waking early (enough) sunday to drive to cleveland to see the most influential musician of my time and life.
Trey Anastasio.
i feel this weekend was placed here for me, to realize i still have my self, and my wits about me, and i should just go blow off some fucking steam at a trey show with the friends who have remained the most dear, close, and true
i only ever truly believe in one thing at a time at any given point in my life. and i beleive one thing for certain in my life right now;
in another time, another place, and another circumstance, we would have found each other. saw each other like no one else had--like i had seen her. we would have fit perfect together, but i never got a chance to prove it, i never got a chance to let myself be where i wanted to be. but i had the best time of my life in that short time, more than any other point in my life. i felt emotion which had never known the likes of me.
so for that, i'm grateful. i thank you. i love you. and i apologize for this
"...and for one desperate moment there
she crept back in his memory.
god its so painful, something that's so close
could be so far out of reach..."
so, in case i don't see ya', good afternoon, good evening, and good night