Acen 2011...
Acen 2011 random thoughts report vlog thing jig....
-I went kinda on a whim, I basically had decided maybe just the day before that I would go.. Trying to force myself with the thought of just how bad this year has been and how my health is always getting worse... Like a you never know sorta thing.. Especially at this rate. Sucked the night before we drove out I got sick so while everyone stayed up I went to bed early.. I was still pretty sick even when we left, and was sick for about half the day on Friday...
Besides that as for health specificly I wasn't to bad.. Mostly just corhns sorta problems.. I did shit some blood which wasnt reassuring.. But mostly just stomache problems.. Vertigo wasn't to bad etc etc....
My back was pretty bad though. I foolishly didn't bring my backbrace. Which deff put a hamper on everything as I couldnt stand/walk around and visit everything like I wanted to.. So lots of little breaks of going back to the hotel room to rest that kinda stuff..
-The line for on sight registration was like 4 hours.. it was fucking terrible. And all those boths were not being used.. I guess I can only hope that the people doing that area were voulenteers so maybe it wasn't a priorty... whats worse though? The fact that if you already pre registered the line to pick up your badge was like.... 3 times as long at least im sure.. I mean it was fucking out of the building.. I remember hearing people talk shit while they were walking around everyone like "Doesnt it feel good that we didnt pre register now" lol.. man.. Also shitty I did see after we left there was a thing for people with disablity.. FUCK. Shoulda used it.. Gotten a badge much easier.. oh well...
-Matt pretty much was blacked out the entire weekend. It sucked because it made me and I think others feel like the bad guy. Because matts our friend but its like.... the only good thing about him this weekend was to cap on him. Which isnt very good ya know? I guess if anyone looks at the pics they will be able to see... Boy theres a lot to say about matt and I just don't have the strength to say it all... The usual im sure the general people that would read this id probably just see them in person to tell them everything I guess....
-Supposedly some people were saying I should dress up as ethier ken from SF if I ever go again, or as a Ken Doll itself from Barbie. ha... Dunno....
-No I did not do anything girl wise... And was my usual shitty self. I guess apperently I got the cliche im intemadating... Which of course is stupid beacuse as usual I was probably the biggest loser there...
-Went to my first Rave.. Don't have a lot to say about it.. Funny its only now going to my first rave I still remember the first party( http://aimforthesuperbestever.xanga.com/635269221/2008-reviewfirst-party-evercomplaing-that-kinda-crap/ ) I ever went too, which still wasn't till I was like 23? or something lol. Just such a culture shock.... Life is so much diff for me then other people my age. I can see the fun in it. But that sorta fun just wasn't ment for me I guess..
-No amagami cosplay what so ever.. WTF????
-I think a word that came into my head a lot this weekend was "fun"... not that I had THAT much fun.. or anything.. As if anything I just took it as a experience really... But again just seeing groups of friends hanging out how other people have fun. And my whole life is compelelty focused on health related issues. It sucks in a way as always seeing people having fun.. And knowing that I have no peers... Like inside not even wanting video game peers or anime peers whatever(just using that as a example since well I was at a con)..just peers that have fun.... But of course all my peers are in the hospital.. Sick people... People that get to do nothing like me all the time.. it sucks....
-I got invited to a party at somepoint but it was late, and I was pretty out of it so didnt go.. ill just hope it sucked or something.. but knowing my luck there was probably some laser beams explosions boobies or something there....
-That certain someone apperently is still very bitter to this day. Even though I havn't seen him in years from what I was told he is still making up lies about me. Pretty sad..
-Going back to the peer thought... again stuff I always talk about it seems but... when im with friends I always struggle inside with, like would I even be friends with these people if we were to meet each other today? And I know the answer to that is most likely no. And that sucks. And of course the hypocritical part is, the new "friends" that I do meet, I know or feel that a lot of it is just beause of how I look. And I hate that. Whats worse is becauese I don't even like how I look.. hard to explain I guess..
meh dude I gotta go... im just gonna end it here im sick so maybe ill edit this at some point at a later date... I was kinda motivated to write again, but I already explained the story on the phone quite a few times and its made me lose intrest lol...
Pics here and videos in the description as well if anyone cares...
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1724614316744.2086539.1279955459¬if_t=photo_album_comment
http://aimforthesuperbestever.xanga.com/19871293/item/ Theres my ACEN 2K3 blog damn... always crazy reading about times before my health shat on me... the future was so wide open lol.
-I went kinda on a whim, I basically had decided maybe just the day before that I would go.. Trying to force myself with the thought of just how bad this year has been and how my health is always getting worse... Like a you never know sorta thing.. Especially at this rate. Sucked the night before we drove out I got sick so while everyone stayed up I went to bed early.. I was still pretty sick even when we left, and was sick for about half the day on Friday...
Besides that as for health specificly I wasn't to bad.. Mostly just corhns sorta problems.. I did shit some blood which wasnt reassuring.. But mostly just stomache problems.. Vertigo wasn't to bad etc etc....
My back was pretty bad though. I foolishly didn't bring my backbrace. Which deff put a hamper on everything as I couldnt stand/walk around and visit everything like I wanted to.. So lots of little breaks of going back to the hotel room to rest that kinda stuff..
-The line for on sight registration was like 4 hours.. it was fucking terrible. And all those boths were not being used.. I guess I can only hope that the people doing that area were voulenteers so maybe it wasn't a priorty... whats worse though? The fact that if you already pre registered the line to pick up your badge was like.... 3 times as long at least im sure.. I mean it was fucking out of the building.. I remember hearing people talk shit while they were walking around everyone like "Doesnt it feel good that we didnt pre register now" lol.. man.. Also shitty I did see after we left there was a thing for people with disablity.. FUCK. Shoulda used it.. Gotten a badge much easier.. oh well...
-Matt pretty much was blacked out the entire weekend. It sucked because it made me and I think others feel like the bad guy. Because matts our friend but its like.... the only good thing about him this weekend was to cap on him. Which isnt very good ya know? I guess if anyone looks at the pics they will be able to see... Boy theres a lot to say about matt and I just don't have the strength to say it all... The usual im sure the general people that would read this id probably just see them in person to tell them everything I guess....
-Supposedly some people were saying I should dress up as ethier ken from SF if I ever go again, or as a Ken Doll itself from Barbie. ha... Dunno....
-No I did not do anything girl wise... And was my usual shitty self. I guess apperently I got the cliche im intemadating... Which of course is stupid beacuse as usual I was probably the biggest loser there...
-Went to my first Rave.. Don't have a lot to say about it.. Funny its only now going to my first rave I still remember the first party( http://aimforthesuperbestever.xanga.com/635269221/2008-reviewfirst-party-evercomplaing-that-kinda-crap/ ) I ever went too, which still wasn't till I was like 23? or something lol. Just such a culture shock.... Life is so much diff for me then other people my age. I can see the fun in it. But that sorta fun just wasn't ment for me I guess..
-No amagami cosplay what so ever.. WTF????
-I think a word that came into my head a lot this weekend was "fun"... not that I had THAT much fun.. or anything.. As if anything I just took it as a experience really... But again just seeing groups of friends hanging out how other people have fun. And my whole life is compelelty focused on health related issues. It sucks in a way as always seeing people having fun.. And knowing that I have no peers... Like inside not even wanting video game peers or anime peers whatever(just using that as a example since well I was at a con)..just peers that have fun.... But of course all my peers are in the hospital.. Sick people... People that get to do nothing like me all the time.. it sucks....
-I got invited to a party at somepoint but it was late, and I was pretty out of it so didnt go.. ill just hope it sucked or something.. but knowing my luck there was probably some laser beams explosions boobies or something there....
-That certain someone apperently is still very bitter to this day. Even though I havn't seen him in years from what I was told he is still making up lies about me. Pretty sad..
-Going back to the peer thought... again stuff I always talk about it seems but... when im with friends I always struggle inside with, like would I even be friends with these people if we were to meet each other today? And I know the answer to that is most likely no. And that sucks. And of course the hypocritical part is, the new "friends" that I do meet, I know or feel that a lot of it is just beause of how I look. And I hate that. Whats worse is becauese I don't even like how I look.. hard to explain I guess..
meh dude I gotta go... im just gonna end it here im sick so maybe ill edit this at some point at a later date... I was kinda motivated to write again, but I already explained the story on the phone quite a few times and its made me lose intrest lol...
Pics here and videos in the description as well if anyone cares...
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1724614316744.2086539.1279955459¬if_t=photo_album_comment
http://aimforthesuperbestever.xanga.com/19871293/item/ Theres my ACEN 2K3 blog damn... always crazy reading about times before my health shat on me... the future was so wide open lol.