Well...
So the Emma saga is over with.
She came over a few weeks ago, we talked, fought, etc. I hated it. Although it wouldn't have been perfect, I could have patched things up with her at that point. I didn't. Why? I didn't want to.
Well... I did want to, but I didn't. Everything between her and I was broken, and the maintenance on our trust with each other would've taken at least a year. A year that I don't have, since I won't be here in the states for much longer. Being in a long distance relationship for two years minimum that would already be hurting, that just doesn't seem like it would work at all.
It didn't have to end so harshly... well, maybe it was necessary. When we initially broke up, we kept talking to each other like we were still together. We weren't over each other. I honestly couldn't get over her if she acted like she still loved me. I won't even get into the whole cheating deal, but for the most part I believe she still loved me.
Well, there is also the fact that I cannot forgive anyone who cheats on me.
So maybe the rough ending between her and I was necessary. If not, perhaps we'd still be talking right now. Best to just leave each others lives than plague each other day by day.
So, all in all, that part of my life is over and done with.
Thus comes the new life.
She came over a few weeks ago, we talked, fought, etc. I hated it. Although it wouldn't have been perfect, I could have patched things up with her at that point. I didn't. Why? I didn't want to.
Well... I did want to, but I didn't. Everything between her and I was broken, and the maintenance on our trust with each other would've taken at least a year. A year that I don't have, since I won't be here in the states for much longer. Being in a long distance relationship for two years minimum that would already be hurting, that just doesn't seem like it would work at all.
It didn't have to end so harshly... well, maybe it was necessary. When we initially broke up, we kept talking to each other like we were still together. We weren't over each other. I honestly couldn't get over her if she acted like she still loved me. I won't even get into the whole cheating deal, but for the most part I believe she still loved me.
Well, there is also the fact that I cannot forgive anyone who cheats on me.
So maybe the rough ending between her and I was necessary. If not, perhaps we'd still be talking right now. Best to just leave each others lives than plague each other day by day.
So, all in all, that part of my life is over and done with.
Thus comes the new life.