the gadabout crowd
The really strange thing about this year is how things keep feeling like they're falling into place, even though maybe they're not.
I keep thinking I'll get a job, start sewing, keep painting/writing/rock climbing, whatever, and I never do. Yet it feels like I'm accomplishing things and getting somewhere. Who knows?
I got into the National Society of Collegiate Scholars, and I was pretty sure it was a scam at first. I always think these things are scams. It's nice to be appreciated I suppose. I have no idea how prestigious it is, but I plan on utilizing it as much as I can. I never applied for scholarships because I never thought I'd get them. It wasn't that the fear of rejection was overwhelming, it just seemed like there was never any point.
Either way I feel a little proud. I know I'm not doing as well as I could be, but I am working kind of hard. It's nice to be recognized. But I can't imagine being like those "high achievers" from high school, those kids who did a sport every season and was the president of every club they were a part of and had a perfect 5.0 to boot (grade inflation and all). It's just...that's not really where I want to go in life. Yeah I'm certainly ambitious but I'm not cutthroat. I'm in it for the fun and the love; everything else comes afterward.
I keep thinking I'll get a job, start sewing, keep painting/writing/rock climbing, whatever, and I never do. Yet it feels like I'm accomplishing things and getting somewhere. Who knows?
I got into the National Society of Collegiate Scholars, and I was pretty sure it was a scam at first. I always think these things are scams. It's nice to be appreciated I suppose. I have no idea how prestigious it is, but I plan on utilizing it as much as I can. I never applied for scholarships because I never thought I'd get them. It wasn't that the fear of rejection was overwhelming, it just seemed like there was never any point.
Either way I feel a little proud. I know I'm not doing as well as I could be, but I am working kind of hard. It's nice to be recognized. But I can't imagine being like those "high achievers" from high school, those kids who did a sport every season and was the president of every club they were a part of and had a perfect 5.0 to boot (grade inflation and all). It's just...that's not really where I want to go in life. Yeah I'm certainly ambitious but I'm not cutthroat. I'm in it for the fun and the love; everything else comes afterward.