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I'm restless. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. Here I am, making plans to be a nurse and all, yet the class I loathe going to more than anything else is Anatomy. I hate all the terms and processes. Everything is so set in stone. I want to be in my sociology class more. I love the abstract and ever changing social views. I'll stick with it, mind you, mostly because I don't feel I should go changing my plans again.
Everyone at my work hates me now. Let me rephrase. Almost everyone at my work hates me now. I think I'm going to give them my notice. I used to enjoy it, but now the girls I work with bitch about me like I can't hear what they're saying. It is just really hostile right now, and if I wanted drama, I would be on a stage. I'm most likely going to get fired for dating one of my bosses, anyway.
Speaking of which, that is the only decision I've made in a really long time that I feel truly happy about. And it's because I did it for me. I know my co-workers hate it. I know my parents will despise it. But I'm happy and I don't want to give this feeling up for anything in the world. Take my job, kick me out, but let me keep Jay. I think I just need to get out of Hemet. There's no school on Tuesday. Maybe I'll go to San Diego. See the old crew. I think that would really do me some good. Or show me what I'm missing there and make me feel even worse, but I'm going to take my chances. I'm longing for human contact. I see the same people every day. I want some change of pace. I don't know what it will take, but God willing, I'll find it. I think it's going to start with a few apologies. I'm out.
Everyone at my work hates me now. Let me rephrase. Almost everyone at my work hates me now. I think I'm going to give them my notice. I used to enjoy it, but now the girls I work with bitch about me like I can't hear what they're saying. It is just really hostile right now, and if I wanted drama, I would be on a stage. I'm most likely going to get fired for dating one of my bosses, anyway.
Speaking of which, that is the only decision I've made in a really long time that I feel truly happy about. And it's because I did it for me. I know my co-workers hate it. I know my parents will despise it. But I'm happy and I don't want to give this feeling up for anything in the world. Take my job, kick me out, but let me keep Jay. I think I just need to get out of Hemet. There's no school on Tuesday. Maybe I'll go to San Diego. See the old crew. I think that would really do me some good. Or show me what I'm missing there and make me feel even worse, but I'm going to take my chances. I'm longing for human contact. I see the same people every day. I want some change of pace. I don't know what it will take, but God willing, I'll find it. I think it's going to start with a few apologies. I'm out.