[Private] Feh.
Has she always been like this and I missed it? Not getting it from me so she goes out and bangs or tries to bang the first person with the right plumbing. I mean Polidori? What the fuck. Wonder if Polidori's the one that gave her the bruise too.
Guess that answers the question of whether or not I was an Ian-substitute. Would explain why she was all moony-eyed on me too. Some kinda psychological transference. Explains why she was going off on how she's happier with me and all that bullshit before. They were on the rocks so suddenly I'm the fucking surrogate. She's happier with me as long as they're not having a good time. Same reason she wanted to keep in my pants while they're not exclusive. She's trying to get laid because he's off fucking Lucy in New York.
And then she's pushing Ailey and now Ann on me? Ann's cool. She's not my type. I've known her maybe three days. She's a great listener and a good lay. We're not going to wind up happily ever after.
And the booze. Don't even fucking get me started.
Should talk to her. Don't want to. I'm so disgusted right now it wouldn't be pretty. Doesn't fucking matter anyway. It's not my life. Lost any idea of a say in it a long time ago. Fuck if I ever even had any.
Or maybe it is. She seems to be sticking her nose in my love life an awful lot.
Can't believe I'm starting to feel bad for Ian.
Need to get away. From everything, not just her. All of it. Ann, Ian, Lucy, the fucked up shit going on around campus, the shit in the closet, everything. Need a change for a while. Too bad I can't fucking get one.
Guess that answers the question of whether or not I was an Ian-substitute. Would explain why she was all moony-eyed on me too. Some kinda psychological transference. Explains why she was going off on how she's happier with me and all that bullshit before. They were on the rocks so suddenly I'm the fucking surrogate. She's happier with me as long as they're not having a good time. Same reason she wanted to keep in my pants while they're not exclusive. She's trying to get laid because he's off fucking Lucy in New York.
And then she's pushing Ailey and now Ann on me? Ann's cool. She's not my type. I've known her maybe three days. She's a great listener and a good lay. We're not going to wind up happily ever after.
And the booze. Don't even fucking get me started.
Should talk to her. Don't want to. I'm so disgusted right now it wouldn't be pretty. Doesn't fucking matter anyway. It's not my life. Lost any idea of a say in it a long time ago. Fuck if I ever even had any.
Or maybe it is. She seems to be sticking her nose in my love life an awful lot.
Can't believe I'm starting to feel bad for Ian.
Need to get away. From everything, not just her. All of it. Ann, Ian, Lucy, the fucked up shit going on around campus, the shit in the closet, everything. Need a change for a while. Too bad I can't fucking get one.