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I hate school.
And I feel ungrateful when I say that because so many people in the world do not even have a chance at the education I am receiving, but I don't even enjoy it anymore. I like to learn, but I don't feel like I am learning much except to overwork myself to get an A. I am only 16 but am already feeling so much stress and pressure to do well, and not nearly enough time to be a kid and learn through experiences. Not textbooks or lectures. And I hate the pressure I put on myself, how I feel like a failure if I get a B in a class. It's not right.
And sometimes I just have to step back and wonder what am I doing all of this for? To get into a good college, I suppose. Does the college really matter? As long as I am somewhere in a place where I will be happy and there are people who can be my friends, I don't really think it does. Not in the long run at least.
And I know many of my friends and peers have felt this way before and will again, I just feel so helpless this time. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I just think we need to learn from le petit prince. He could have been a great artist, but no the adults make him study geography and other pointless subjects.
Now I am just rambling and have to stop or else I won't have time to finish french, physics and study for pre-calc.
And I feel ungrateful when I say that because so many people in the world do not even have a chance at the education I am receiving, but I don't even enjoy it anymore. I like to learn, but I don't feel like I am learning much except to overwork myself to get an A. I am only 16 but am already feeling so much stress and pressure to do well, and not nearly enough time to be a kid and learn through experiences. Not textbooks or lectures. And I hate the pressure I put on myself, how I feel like a failure if I get a B in a class. It's not right.
And sometimes I just have to step back and wonder what am I doing all of this for? To get into a good college, I suppose. Does the college really matter? As long as I am somewhere in a place where I will be happy and there are people who can be my friends, I don't really think it does. Not in the long run at least.
And I know many of my friends and peers have felt this way before and will again, I just feel so helpless this time. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I just think we need to learn from le petit prince. He could have been a great artist, but no the adults make him study geography and other pointless subjects.
Now I am just rambling and have to stop or else I won't have time to finish french, physics and study for pre-calc.