Please read this one, it's important!!!
Last nite I got a call from my beloved Tina and we talked for a few hours about the nature of relationships and processing within ourselves. I believe that this was one of the most important even profound conversations i've ever had. Tina always puts into perspective certain things that I refuse to think about. Things such as "vulnerability is strength" and that if you've been moated several times, and continue to reach out and aloow yourself to open up to new people is so fucking hard, yet essential for survival.
I also realized a few things about myself, including that I have a really easy time writing people off once they've fucked me over(not that i need or want to speak to them anymore). but I don't even give myself time to feel all the emotions that might be present or to understand how certain things are better for me. I don't want to do this anymore, and although I definitly would like to keep my distance from certain individuals, with this i need to be open and willing to process what the separation means for me and why I was in the relationship to begin with. This applies to friends as well. Too many people I have loved have left my life and it is important not to forget what strengths i have gained from this, since i never forget the pain which still lingers.
At this point in my life, although (we) and I are never happy to just be with ourselves, it is crucial to embrace when these lonely(for lack of a better word)times come and learn from what they bring us.
Currently a few of my best friends are dealing with different types of loss, whether it be of a person they love or something they thought they understood, but now don't. For all of you I hope that you think about these things and sit down and process how this might be a blessing in disguise. I love you guys, and although some might go, we al know that theres a core of us that barely shakes. Take comfort in that above anything.
ciao beautifuls...
mE saturn fina alina bee
I also realized a few things about myself, including that I have a really easy time writing people off once they've fucked me over(not that i need or want to speak to them anymore). but I don't even give myself time to feel all the emotions that might be present or to understand how certain things are better for me. I don't want to do this anymore, and although I definitly would like to keep my distance from certain individuals, with this i need to be open and willing to process what the separation means for me and why I was in the relationship to begin with. This applies to friends as well. Too many people I have loved have left my life and it is important not to forget what strengths i have gained from this, since i never forget the pain which still lingers.
At this point in my life, although (we) and I are never happy to just be with ourselves, it is crucial to embrace when these lonely(for lack of a better word)times come and learn from what they bring us.
Currently a few of my best friends are dealing with different types of loss, whether it be of a person they love or something they thought they understood, but now don't. For all of you I hope that you think about these things and sit down and process how this might be a blessing in disguise. I love you guys, and although some might go, we al know that theres a core of us that barely shakes. Take comfort in that above anything.
ciao beautifuls...
mE saturn fina alina bee