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i don't know where i am. i could not substainiate buying a new shower curtain yesterday and was aprehensive about buying food becuase i was afraid of my check not going through yet but thought it was perfectly acceptable to buy 1.75l of swedish vodka. tomorrow will be groceries and so on. i'm so alone here with so many people all around me. right now i'm drinking my 6th cup of black tea and whatever you would call vodka shaken in ice with lime. i think this is my 4th time playing 'i'm wide awake its morning' today. i need to get my act together you know? you know? probably be happy. i should have gone out with my friend jacob today, but i just can't stand watching movies. i have no tollerance for ugly media lately. i'm looking forward to classes. this city is really amazing. i love it to pieces already. tomorrow my roomie-to-be is going to come with me to the contemporary art museum and then to......... i forget. but hes a nice guy. shit. i'm drunk enough. if anybody wants to call me on my fancy new phone my number is.. lemme go open my fucking thing. hold on. 6083543116 which is verizon so if you have a verizon phone you can talkt o me for free. kevlar 17 gage string. yay. cleveland. i'm looking at you. why don't you call me cleveland? i have not been gone very long but it feels like a life time. drive all night just to feel like you're okay. i will sleep on a couch tonight again. i feel as though not a single day has past. i'm waiting for this guy to leave to get his bed. these flirty asian twins live next door and though i was far from interested i caught myself staring through their window because i always do that and i think i freaked them out because they looked basck without me noticing they were. hahahahahah... oh gosh. once when i was five i was nearly abducted. there is really a conversation going on here and i am ignoring the laser beam focus honing in on my locatin. i think i';l l stand in allrightment iwth it tomorrow na d become the super lottery free range ballistic missle i belong in. feel like i just woke up costantly. i should write a list of things to do and buy. number one is cash my fuckin' checks. damn. i love each and every one of you. lemme pull up my friends list and see if thats true. .......... i guess its true for everybody whom i've known face-to-face for more than 6 weeks. it is. so i love you. and i wish you could join me tomorrow at this museum. maybe i should get a job there eh? we'll see. my drinks are getting warm and cold and they should be cold and warm so i got to keep my focus on getting drunk and buzzed and get these speakers hooked up. i wwant to get to the point where i have to be drug home in the snow full my a cheap supply and stumbling close to you. swinging a tennis racquet maybe i'll water my plants and go outside and take a walk. its strange to have this phone now. i'll probalby have it all my life , the nubmer anyhow. i mean. this number is likely to follow me until i either cannot afford to keep it or i dunno. i took video footage all day today aobut this sity and its pretty neat place. the night my night ended with me hauling a broken bike back 2.5 miles from home with roomate. it was rediculous. people took pictuires. hha. i felt as thoough i was returning a favor or fullfilling my part of the deal with the bike. but then i decided it had no soul since it was bought at walmart. nothing can be anthropromorphized if it comes from walmart. maybe it can. what am i saying? it can. but not bikes. i love my new clothes. i love wearing dress clothing now. i can't wait to windert becuase then i have sweaters and things. oh winter . i suppose my spelling it not emaculate this time around. this is the first day of my new life. ii will make sure i go to bed tonight and wake up and just realize it.