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I have orientation Friday about home schooling.
Hopefully they will allow me to do it so I can do all my work online, get it done early, and be done with school.
After that, I'm either getting my cosmetology license or nothing. That's all I'm settling for, I don't wanna do ANYTHING else.
I need $80 so I can get extensions. I HATE my hair. It's so dead it just keeps breaking off and won't grow any longer than the length it is now.
I wish I NEVER would've died my hair and NEVER cut it.
I had the prettiest long, blonde hair. I'm an idiot. Maybe I'll shave my head one day.
Nothing's really going on at all right now.
I saw Sam Robinson today at Trav's and she sat down with me and had a long talk with me. She said that every time she's ever been around me she just "feels" my negative energy all around her and it makes her wanna cry.
I did not say ONE word, and she literally told ME all the things that were on my mind and bothering me. It was insane. She can read people like a book.
To be honest, I am and always have been really unhappy, no matter how much I smile and laugh. She said that soon we're gonna go somewhere and I just need to pour out everything I feel inside, and she's gonna help me get better. I believe she can do it too, I've seen her help people. It's amazing. She has a gift. And I'm SO ready to just be happy for once and be comfortable with myself.
That's why Travis broke up with me Friday. He's always worried about me and he feels, for some reason, that he's the one bringing me down and making me feel worse. Like he's the problem. And he feels he just can't hold both his problems and mine above the water. He's been so damn patient with me and I never even realized it.
But the most fucked up part is, Travis has told me all of this before, and I heard what he was saying but I didn't really HEAR what he was saying. If that makes sense. It finally clicked today, and Sam is the one who told me all this. Travis didn't even tell her he broke up with me, she literally knew how he was feeling and how I was feeling. It's fucking crazy. Their entire family all has that little psychic thing goin on.
Hopefully they will allow me to do it so I can do all my work online, get it done early, and be done with school.
After that, I'm either getting my cosmetology license or nothing. That's all I'm settling for, I don't wanna do ANYTHING else.
I need $80 so I can get extensions. I HATE my hair. It's so dead it just keeps breaking off and won't grow any longer than the length it is now.
I wish I NEVER would've died my hair and NEVER cut it.
I had the prettiest long, blonde hair. I'm an idiot. Maybe I'll shave my head one day.
Nothing's really going on at all right now.
I saw Sam Robinson today at Trav's and she sat down with me and had a long talk with me. She said that every time she's ever been around me she just "feels" my negative energy all around her and it makes her wanna cry.
I did not say ONE word, and she literally told ME all the things that were on my mind and bothering me. It was insane. She can read people like a book.
To be honest, I am and always have been really unhappy, no matter how much I smile and laugh. She said that soon we're gonna go somewhere and I just need to pour out everything I feel inside, and she's gonna help me get better. I believe she can do it too, I've seen her help people. It's amazing. She has a gift. And I'm SO ready to just be happy for once and be comfortable with myself.
That's why Travis broke up with me Friday. He's always worried about me and he feels, for some reason, that he's the one bringing me down and making me feel worse. Like he's the problem. And he feels he just can't hold both his problems and mine above the water. He's been so damn patient with me and I never even realized it.
But the most fucked up part is, Travis has told me all of this before, and I heard what he was saying but I didn't really HEAR what he was saying. If that makes sense. It finally clicked today, and Sam is the one who told me all this. Travis didn't even tell her he broke up with me, she literally knew how he was feeling and how I was feeling. It's fucking crazy. Their entire family all has that little psychic thing goin on.