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[filthpit]

have you ever wished you never knew what love was? its like holy shit man. i once heard an interesting analogy that went "love is like a biiiiig mountain, its difficult to climb but once you get to the top its a beautiful view" but they didnt end it..."but like all beautiful sunny days, the sun has to go down, and when it does youre lost on top of that mountain and you cant even see your hand in front of your face." thats usually how it goes, but its what they dont want you to know. love is a great feeling, but like all feelings, it comes and goes. and when it goes it just rips a piece right out of you. a rather large piece for that matter. all im saying is that if youre in a relationship with someone you care about, let them know you care about them, open up to them, and most of all respect them. cause it really hurts to be in love with someone that has no respect for you. well enough of my ranting about this so called love. on a lighter note, i start skool tomorrow. ok well maybe thats not so light. but whatever. i have to go in early to adjust my schedule cause my guidance counselor is a fuck up. this year is going to suck. all of my friends graduated. i just have jake and nick. jakes a fuckin mongoloid and nick has no classes with me or lunches or anything. now for some good news. my dad sold his house and when he gets an apartment hes going to have some money left over and hes buying me a car. i think thats a bit extreme, id rather get a marshall stack..but a free car works too. i hate driving. im just not one of those kids who would kill to get their license, i mean, it would be nice, but im not in any hurry. and plus, all of my friends drive so getting anywhere hasnt posed a problem. i turned in a couple job applications. one to wendys and one to jimmy johns. two of my favorite places to eat. i hope jimmy johns hires me cause its an all american restaurant. wendys is illegal immigration central. not to sound like a dick of course. but it was funny cause theres a question on the wendys application asking if youre a legal us citizen, i put no. and sadly i probably have a better chance of being hired. gahh whats this country coming to? i also put my last name as gomez. i wont be able to help but laugh hysterically when they call me saying they want me to work there. haha. wow. i dont really want to anyway, i just hope jimmy johns hires me. holy shit i talk alot. im sorry i just wasted about 5 minutes of your life. but i dont feel bad cause you chose to read this pathetic rant about nothing. anyway. i have skool tomorrow. thats probably going to suck. there are no hunnies out here in the middle of nowhere. so its going to be a sausage fest with my friends just as it was last year.i cant wait to go back to florida. im through with relationships man. im just gonna do what i want. unless i really do find that right girl, which it seems like everytime i think i do i end up getting a big kick to the nutsack in the end. so i probably wont bother with another relationship. man i had to go shopping for skool with my mom today. her taste in clothes is fucking garbage. i ended up getting a few pairs of pants, a lamb of god shirt, and the new "mother of abominations" cradle of filth shirt. oh and socks and boxers. when we walked into the mall they were playing this loud ass techno music and i just couldnt help but dance. i was in the middle of the mall just dancing while my mom was yelling at me/laughing her ass off. it was great. well i supposed im going to try to get some sleep for tomorrow, most likely with no luck. oh and check out my bands website...freewebs.com/monolithic. its not done yet theres a number of adjustments i need to make but its coming along nicely. be sure to sign the guestbook. and this is our myspace...myspace.com/monolithic1. add us and tell your friends. i think we're pretty good. we have a new demo that should be finished hopefully this week. well i guess thats it. later
signed....Mr. Crowley