i feel completely helpless.
i didn't get to talk to him last night because he was in so much pain he was almost crying on the phone. but now instead of just pain, he's got afever and some sort of "relapse." his mother didn't specify what that means. how can you relapse when you took out the fucking organ? i don't know what's actually happening and i'm scared to death. he's probably ok, but still. i can't help worrying. at least i know i'd be helpless to do anything even if i wasn't a thousand miles away :-(