eleven plus one
ten days until convocation, 11 days until commencement, 12 days until i leave syracuse and never come back.
i'm ready.
for my belated birthday last night, aaron, jamie, her boyfriend matt, and i did a tour of all the campus bars. very drunk. it was fun though, until something happened at chuck's and i totally lost it. we started fighting, and didn't stop for quite a while. everything seemed to calm down by morning and we hung out and talked for a while. then, i come home and listen to the cd he made me for my birthday, and every song is about saying goodbye, about not waiting, etc etc and i really hope i'm reading too much into it. i don't know where we stand. i'm so afraid he's just waiting until after graduation or after florida to break it off, because he wouldn't want to ruin graduation for me or something, he's just like that. i don't know, but i don't like things right now. at all. every little thing that happens just seems like another reason he won't want to bother trying to make it work.
i'm ready.
for my belated birthday last night, aaron, jamie, her boyfriend matt, and i did a tour of all the campus bars. very drunk. it was fun though, until something happened at chuck's and i totally lost it. we started fighting, and didn't stop for quite a while. everything seemed to calm down by morning and we hung out and talked for a while. then, i come home and listen to the cd he made me for my birthday, and every song is about saying goodbye, about not waiting, etc etc and i really hope i'm reading too much into it. i don't know where we stand. i'm so afraid he's just waiting until after graduation or after florida to break it off, because he wouldn't want to ruin graduation for me or something, he's just like that. i don't know, but i don't like things right now. at all. every little thing that happens just seems like another reason he won't want to bother trying to make it work.