faraway in a far off land
oh my oh my i wish the sky was blue today. my dad is coming to china tomorrow. that should be a blast!
it might get in the way of course, but to be expected, fathers you know, can be a bit in the way, when you are off on adventures, figuring out how you fit in the big old world, being varying degrees of intoxicated with drink and the intoxication of language skills. the weeks rush by here and we are almost done.
the thing is, of course, as things are wont to go, there's this boy, and well, frankly i am a little more than a little confused. and maybe a part of my enlightenment will be to learn how to so frankly like some body without the instant gratification of sexual energies. and i know that i am pushy, and impatient as girls go, and rather too direct at times. but there's all of this china around me. and it is new, and big, and even the parts i know so well now still feel at times distant. and so in my confusion i have taken to cuddling ostentatiously on every friend, and looking for hugs and squishes and tickles and it is not even so much too much so much as it is just the same amount of physical contact i would have in dc, just these people don't know me for such an extended period of time.
and this boy! well what to do. he either likes me or he don't and that's the way the cookie crumbles, and he says he does, but you know, saying only can do a bit. actions, words, loud, you know, you've heard the saying. and i just want to be kissed. so, you know, life is hard when kisses are hard to come by. and maybe they are not even, it is just my own roller coast of this adventure, and seeking a stable, easy kind of thing, would be easier. but its the end, and more travels to come after that.
there is still time to meet a simple mountain sherpa man, and see the mountains and the yaks. there is still time to come back and keep learning. there is still time.
it might get in the way of course, but to be expected, fathers you know, can be a bit in the way, when you are off on adventures, figuring out how you fit in the big old world, being varying degrees of intoxicated with drink and the intoxication of language skills. the weeks rush by here and we are almost done.
the thing is, of course, as things are wont to go, there's this boy, and well, frankly i am a little more than a little confused. and maybe a part of my enlightenment will be to learn how to so frankly like some body without the instant gratification of sexual energies. and i know that i am pushy, and impatient as girls go, and rather too direct at times. but there's all of this china around me. and it is new, and big, and even the parts i know so well now still feel at times distant. and so in my confusion i have taken to cuddling ostentatiously on every friend, and looking for hugs and squishes and tickles and it is not even so much too much so much as it is just the same amount of physical contact i would have in dc, just these people don't know me for such an extended period of time.
and this boy! well what to do. he either likes me or he don't and that's the way the cookie crumbles, and he says he does, but you know, saying only can do a bit. actions, words, loud, you know, you've heard the saying. and i just want to be kissed. so, you know, life is hard when kisses are hard to come by. and maybe they are not even, it is just my own roller coast of this adventure, and seeking a stable, easy kind of thing, would be easier. but its the end, and more travels to come after that.
there is still time to meet a simple mountain sherpa man, and see the mountains and the yaks. there is still time to come back and keep learning. there is still time.