Jar Of Blood

[fileyourteeth]

 I remember everything, I fucking remember every single thing, down to the last damn detail. I remember my first kiss with Monica playing spin the bottle in the back of the middle school, it lasted 10 seconds. Then of course, the time when I was the only kid with casual clothes on a regular friday, weirdo. I remember being afraid of older kids I

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[walrus828]

here you are! would you believe me if i told you i've asked about your whereabouts recently? really recently. just a couple of days ago i ran into mel, and one of the first things i asked her was if she had ever seen or spoken to you again. i miss reading you. i hope you still write. i still have things saved on my hard drive that you once wrote, things you wrote as murderousmouse a very long time ago. it is always a nice surprise to come across a text file with little tid bits of things you once said or wrote.

anyways, i realize this comment/reponse to your post is coming a little late, but nevertheless, here are a couple of things i think you should know:
- if what you say is true, and you remember "everything," you sure as hell don't remember everything acurately. the little part about me: yes i knew you liked me, and i liked you also. i still remember very fondly our little online chats, and this was before you even liked me. then when you did, i was dating some pain in the ass guy who wouldnt stop calling. with regards to sleeping with my friend: things like that happen, especially considering she was and still is pretty freakin attractive. why wouldn't you?
- about loving two people at the same time: hay una parte en "el amor en los tiempos del colera" donde gabriel garcia marquez dice que si se puede amar a mas de una persona a la misma vez ya que "El corazón tiene más cuartos que un hotel de putas." porque irle a la contraria?
- now, about deserving. fuck that! you deserve whatever you allow yourself to deserve. past or future screw ups are nothing. you do the best you can while shit around you happens. the only thing to do is to enjoy it all, whatever it is, however it comes. lo que paso, paso, y lo que sera, sera. there is always that bus around the corner about to run you over, so there is no use in wasting any time with regrets.

- your last line saddens me. does this mean i can forget about walking someday around barnes and noble and reading something with your name on it?