mauricio and ben go wireless

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i had lunch with mauricio, michelle and ben yesterday. it was delicious and funny as always, filled with witty banter and significant conversation. we were doing fine. but when we walked to our cars, stopped, and finally looked at each other, i saw mauricio's face go from happy to sad in a moment. his face scrunched up and his eyes began to redden. i knew that my face mirrored that exact expression as we fell into a goodbye hug. i felt the vibrations of his breath, fast, teary, on my shoulder and i held on tighter than ever. there have been very few people in my life that have made me feel understood, appreciated, loved. very few people who feel like home to me. mauricio feels like home to me. it's tough, but saying goodbye is just another part of our adventure.

i've been saying goodbye to people i love lately. it's not getting easier, but i'm getting used to it. i just have to remember to be fearless. no standing still.

sidebar: i've really got to finish writing. if you can fix crappy laptops, let me know. mine's all kinds of fucked up and i need help.