Holy Freakin God This Is LONG XD
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Southhampton ~ James Horner
Its never easy is it? Oh well, at least this guitar is distracting me. I've finally put it down after about 4 hours and i think its about time my fingers are given a break.
Practice was long and arduous, but plenty of fun. I'm finally bringin my skills together and it feels good to just be workin it and not thiknin about it. I'll try to avoid talking about whats really on my mind, to save myself from that downwards spiral
Seaside Rendezvous ~ Queen
I'm listing the songs that come on as they come on. Because I'm bored. And now im skipping it cuz i dont really like this song.
HEAVEN ~ LOS LONELY BOYS
Now here's a song!! Ooooo boy ^.^ Talk about summer memories. This is THE cruising song and just like...it is summer. *sways* how farrr is heaven? hehehe ^.^ I knew this song on guitar once. Now that we have two, me and my dad should learn it. I could solo over a rhythm guitar! bomb dood. Yeah this song reminds me of smugglers. So many good memories there. I'm so pumped for...this summer.
"Revenge is like a poison, it can consume you, and turn you into something ugly."
I like that quote.
I'm Lost Without You ~ Blink 182
I'm sad to admit I like totally agree with every word of this song >.< I'd never listened to it b4 tonight. I like it but i hate the...yeah. It reminds me of the first arts night i went to with kathryn for somereason. Of the guy who asked a girl out on stage and she said yes and he was so pumped, and went and sat with her after the performance. And i sat there holding kathryns hand and was happy ^.^ for some reason this reminds me of that. Idn. go figure. I like this song. I hope shes having a good time at prom, whatever she's doing. My imagination is worse than whats actually going down, im sure. But shes there having a night of nights. Like ones she used to have with me. It makes me sad to know shes sharing that romantic night without me. Well, sad for me not for her XD I'm glad shes having fun and everyhting. yeah. ok next song is comin lets see how it affects my mood.
Who Wants To Live Forever ~ Dune
Thers no time for us, Theres no place for us. what is this thing that builds our dreams? Yeah, it slips away form us. Who wants to live forever? Who wants to live forever? I love this song. No real memories associated with it. Except that at times i want to live forever. but the last line of the song man "Who waits forever anyways?" oo man, scary. but sorta daring >) i like it. "Now touch my cheek with your lips, touch my world with your fingertips. And we can have forever, we can love forever." I fergot its a love song and like the most epic ever ^.^ That little bridge, those last lyrics, i love those. Romantic ideals like those blow me away and i think theyre the sweetest things ever. Remember: thats coming from a 170 muscle-bound hockey player who has a friend who gives the goat to strangers. Quite a dichotomy, eh?
Scarlet Begonias ~ Sublime
This reminds me of the times kathryn put flowers in her hair ( or mine) which leads me to memories of summer with kathryn. Its true, shes not like other girls. She has somethin special. I love it. Athletic and strong but cute and funny as all hell XD ohh crap memories....i love them but i curse them. I love them...i bet i could wait forever. Its so rough not bein able to fight. Its the weirdest fight in the world, and probably the hardest. I have to fight myself as i want to scream i love you. Her smiles are out of this world ^.^
Who's There ~ Smashmouth
Recentley i've seen her smiling again. Out of the blue, just smiling. And its the most beautiful thing ive ever seen ^.^ Its special because in a room of hundreds she stands out still. Thers never been anyone whos more My Type. An absolutley gorgeoud girl who digs LOTR??? How the hell did i get THAT! that rocks! XD And that blush in her face and ...i jsut think hse perfect. I cant help it. Oh well maybe i'll luck out and she WIL come back and be all lovey dovey again. its def gonna be a rough while waiting tho...oh well. She is the kind of girl who has to know if the other side is greener. I hope it just looked greener from this side. Although, if this side is really as miserable as she says...naw that cant be.
#1 Zero ~ Audioslave
It hurts too much to think I really pressured her into staying and made her miserable for so long. She DID come back. I always said my two cents worth, but she always could have done what she was doing now......yeah. My dreams are going to be good tonight. heyre being fueled by a whole lot of thinking about kathryn. I always have hope every night beause nothing but how much i love her is what i remember, everything else melts away.Jerod IS a senior tho. And gilbert is sumthin new, with a slightly altered circle of friends. There are others too, all who she could choose over me. And she knows i'll always be here for her to comeback to. Whats stopping her from looking around alittle? nothin, thats what. And thats why she will be happy. Because she has total freedom.
I'll Get Even ~ Megadeth
Heh, this song...this reminds me of bike riding actually. The time i snuck out and biked like 18 miles at midnight. This song came on twice that night. It makes me want to comit a crime. Probably not a good reaction to music XD. Oh well.I can't belive how far im pushing this term paper. up until within 2 days of the due date to do the WHOLE thing. I ROCK. And oh OMG TOTALLY UNRELLATED: related to kathryn actually. Why the hell did she write sorry on like nine of my things the other day? IT was out of NOWHERE and she wouldnt say what she was sorry for and i was liike I dont UNDERSTAND. I wonder if she reads my LJ still. Thatd be pretty awkward. Its her own perogative cuz im trying to keep myself open, but she hasnt commented EVER and she never makes reference to anything i say in here, so im lead to believe she doesnt, afterall, it must be annoying hearing nothing but me pining away aoubt missing her XD.
Can You Feel The Love Tonight ~ Disney
Oh hell yeah. I think this is one of my theme songs XD This just sort of reminds of all those tender moments with kathryn in general. I dont know why this song is sad, but even when i was still with her, it was always just a little sad, evne tho it should be nothing but happy. A weird mix. Idn, im weird. what do i call this emotion that i'm feeling? This desire to see her happy and therefore having to let her go but this feeling of OMG i want to be her love and hold her in my arms and be held by hers and kiss her and whisper i love you.
CLOCKS ~ COLDPLAY
SUMMMERRR. WOOOT. Also, kathryns house cuz they play coldplay over there all the time. oooo!! my hair is long enough for a small pony tail! XD rock on!! its gettin longer XD. i loveee this song. Heres one that just overwhelms me with feeling and lets me forget everyhting. But once it ends im gonna be in an even more romantic and epic mood.
Nothing Left To Lose ~ Mat Kearney
Yeah, I miss her. I cant deny that. OH I LOVE THIS SONG, I JUST RECOGNIZED IT. "Come on and we'll sing like we are free, come on and we'll try one last time. And here we go, theres nothin left to choose, and here we go thers nothin left to lose" I love this little world i live in. Everyday i sit there and struggle thur the day and push to keep myself going, then i get to come to my quiet little home and have romantic thoughts while i sing emo songs and learn to play a guitar to crack that perfect limerick. This world, this world and my dreams, (for they are related), its all ive got until someone comes and raises me up.
Better Man ~ Pearl Jam
I love this song iwth all my heart. It sort of always makes me feel bad cuz i know kathryn is looking for a better man but...i still love this song. Its perfect. saddest song in the world, eh? Lieing that you love someone? That WOULD be terrible pain. eh...sad to think about...i know its repetitive but its my world right about now? I just go over the little info and thoughts i have, and try mto comfort myself with them.
Heres someting unique.
Same Old Lang Syne ~ Dan Fogleberg
Met my old lover in the grocery store
The snow was falling christmas eve
I stole behind her in the frozen foods
And I touched her on the sleeve
She didnt recognize the face at first
But then her eyes flew open wide
She went to hug me and she spilled her purse
And we laughed until we cried.
We took her groceries to the checkout stand
The food was totalled up and bagged
We stood there lost in our embarrassment
As the conversation dragged.
We went to have ourselves a drink or two
But couldnt find an open bar
We bought a six-pack at the liquor store
And we drank it in her car.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
And tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how.
She said shed married her an architect
Who kept her warm and safe and dry
She would have liked to say she loved the man
But she didnt like to lie.
I said the years had been a friend to her
And that her eyes were still as blue
But in those eyes I wasnt sure if I saw
Doubt or gratitude.
She said she saw me in the record stores
And that I must be doing well
I said the audience was heavenly
But the traveling was hell.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
And tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to time
Reliving in our eloquence
Another auld lang syne...
The beer was empty and our tongues were tired
And running out of things to say
She gave a kiss to me as I got out
And I watched her drive away.
Just for a moment I was back at school
And felt that old familiar pain
And as I turned to make my way back home
The snow turned into rain --
forever a sad song. "But she didnt like to lie" . Lieing about the love she tried to find away from him (makes me feel good because its like Soul Mates Exist) but then those last two stanzas...Gives him one last kiss, and that pain is still there after all those years. SChool lovers, and this guy still loves her, and it still rains when he misses her. The world is just better when theyre together. Happy, and terribly, terribly sad.
Mmm mmm mmm mmm ~ Crash Test Dummies.
Finally, a song taht doesnt remind me of kathryn at all XD Because this one is all about my childhood memories. And the analysis of this video was like: "YOU CANT HAVEA CHORUS OF JUST MMMM'S!!! THAT BREAKS ALL THE RULES!" and i was like psh shuttup this song kicks your ass. it was som VH1 ass who sits there and listens to music way too much and thinks thers "right and wrong"......ass.
Super Trouper ~ A*Teens
Never listend to it b4. This is happy ^.^ ... ^.^
So I'll be there when you arrive
The sight of you will prove to me I'm still alive
And when you take me in your arms
And hold me tight
I know it's gonna mean so much tonight
AWWWWEEEEEEE. I mean. Uhhh. Hi XD
A Pirate Looks at 40 ~ Jimmy Buffet
I wish i was a pirate.
How You Remind Me ~ NickelBack
Fuck yes. Fuck yes. Fuckin rock on. Summer kicks ass. I cannot wait. Omg memory! : It was summer or spring of last year. I was leaving kathryns house to bike home as the sun was setting. I was pumped and wearing a nic blue muscle shirt and feelin like the king of the world. I gave kathryn a kiss as she was dressed for karate and as i walked out, i slid my sunglasses on and turned around and smiled like a devonear; "are we having fun yet?" i said, with a devilish smile. Oh it was the greatest summer of my life. And i swear it started with htos words. That ride home kicked ass. I did it in about 18 minutes, 7 minutes faster tha usual. And it was BOMB. Only nickelback lit the roads with music that eve.
Seventh Grade Dance ~ Smashmouth
Sad song, but it always makes me feel a little better than when i started. Makes me feel like my old unsure self. Not livin for nothin except summer, sports, and videogames to tide me over between them. A life i liked, but i like life better when im in love. I admit that.
Hey Juliet ~ LMNT
uhhh, bomb dood? I might be a hopeless rmoantic, and this may or may not be my theme song >.> God this song makes me happy ^.^ It makes me want to be your romeo.
(oh yay song references)
Slide ~ Goo Goo Dolls
hell yeah.
Rocky Road To Dublin ~ Dropkick Murphy's
Melting Point Of Wax ~ Thrice
Spit On A Stranger ~ Nickel Creek
Not much too say...gettin tired and enjoyin the music.
Me Seaghara bar.
Sunshine.
Seven Drunken Pirates ~ Floggin Molly
i like kittens!
Firefly ~ Breaking Benjamin
I'd kill to go to a concert. This has remained constant since about 2 years ago.
I wonder if I even matter anymore. I wonder if i ever will. To her. Not just in general, b4 anyone ELSE thinks im suicidal.
L.G.Faud ~ MCS
"With my memories and photographs i have learned to love the lie"
heh.
"And if memory serves im addicted to words and they are useless."
heh.
Drift Away ~Uncle Kracker
Memory: every time ive been in the car with the windows down and the music blaring, screaming along "Gimme the beat boys and free my soul, i wanna get lost in your rock n' roll and drift away." Won't you take me away? I HATE WANTING TO SAY I LOVE YOU. HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Fuck it its my LJ she doesnt read it anyways so it cant upset her. I love her and i miss her. Fuck fuckin fuckin A. Andddd Im better now. I always wonder if its better to let theat out or keep it all buried inside.
So yeah. Me and bacon are hanging tommorow at myhouse from noon - late. If anyone cares to join us, it would be bomb im sure, just gimme a call on my house phone and let me know your coming. We'll prolly go out at some point and we'll be watching a movie or two, as well as jammin out to music and generally lovin life. Eveyone is invited, just gimme a heads up b4 you show up, anybody XD.
Fildred13: prom is just a stupid thing in the background of a life filled with happiness.
Fildred13: ignore that fuckin bullshit night
Fildred13: that wont matter at all in the scheme of things
Fildred13: and focus on having a fuckin blast
Fildred13: cuz its what we're here for.
and thats why they call me sunshine XD
Simple and Clean ~ Utadu Hikaru
I'm Not Okay ~ MCR
This has been a good night. ^.^ I got a whole lot of emotion out and im ready to bury it again for as long as neccesary ^.^ sorry to anyuone who actually trudged through the whole thing. It is more intended for my personal venting, not others to actually suffer through.
Also, Imma be bored on sunday, anyone wanna chill? I'll be mentioning that plenty through the next two days, but its worth it to start here and then spread it to my away message and then to direct plea's later.
A Whole New World ~ Alan Menken
Ah, great song ^.^
nothing but happiness and love here.
If You Want To Soar With The Eagles In The Mornings, You Can't Hoot With The Owls At Night.
I still have hope. how sad?...nah
camonn An Cnivic ~ Green Hill
<3 yeah <3
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Southhampton ~ James Horner
Its never easy is it? Oh well, at least this guitar is distracting me. I've finally put it down after about 4 hours and i think its about time my fingers are given a break.
Practice was long and arduous, but plenty of fun. I'm finally bringin my skills together and it feels good to just be workin it and not thiknin about it. I'll try to avoid talking about whats really on my mind, to save myself from that downwards spiral
Seaside Rendezvous ~ Queen
I'm listing the songs that come on as they come on. Because I'm bored. And now im skipping it cuz i dont really like this song.
HEAVEN ~ LOS LONELY BOYS
Now here's a song!! Ooooo boy ^.^ Talk about summer memories. This is THE cruising song and just like...it is summer. *sways* how farrr is heaven? hehehe ^.^ I knew this song on guitar once. Now that we have two, me and my dad should learn it. I could solo over a rhythm guitar! bomb dood. Yeah this song reminds me of smugglers. So many good memories there. I'm so pumped for...this summer.
"Revenge is like a poison, it can consume you, and turn you into something ugly."
I like that quote.
I'm Lost Without You ~ Blink 182
I'm sad to admit I like totally agree with every word of this song >.< I'd never listened to it b4 tonight. I like it but i hate the...yeah. It reminds me of the first arts night i went to with kathryn for somereason. Of the guy who asked a girl out on stage and she said yes and he was so pumped, and went and sat with her after the performance. And i sat there holding kathryns hand and was happy ^.^ for some reason this reminds me of that. Idn. go figure. I like this song. I hope shes having a good time at prom, whatever she's doing. My imagination is worse than whats actually going down, im sure. But shes there having a night of nights. Like ones she used to have with me. It makes me sad to know shes sharing that romantic night without me. Well, sad for me not for her XD I'm glad shes having fun and everyhting. yeah. ok next song is comin lets see how it affects my mood.
Who Wants To Live Forever ~ Dune
Thers no time for us, Theres no place for us. what is this thing that builds our dreams? Yeah, it slips away form us. Who wants to live forever? Who wants to live forever? I love this song. No real memories associated with it. Except that at times i want to live forever. but the last line of the song man "Who waits forever anyways?" oo man, scary. but sorta daring >) i like it. "Now touch my cheek with your lips, touch my world with your fingertips. And we can have forever, we can love forever." I fergot its a love song and like the most epic ever ^.^ That little bridge, those last lyrics, i love those. Romantic ideals like those blow me away and i think theyre the sweetest things ever. Remember: thats coming from a 170 muscle-bound hockey player who has a friend who gives the goat to strangers. Quite a dichotomy, eh?
Scarlet Begonias ~ Sublime
This reminds me of the times kathryn put flowers in her hair ( or mine) which leads me to memories of summer with kathryn. Its true, shes not like other girls. She has somethin special. I love it. Athletic and strong but cute and funny as all hell XD ohh crap memories....i love them but i curse them. I love them...i bet i could wait forever. Its so rough not bein able to fight. Its the weirdest fight in the world, and probably the hardest. I have to fight myself as i want to scream i love you. Her smiles are out of this world ^.^
Who's There ~ Smashmouth
Recentley i've seen her smiling again. Out of the blue, just smiling. And its the most beautiful thing ive ever seen ^.^ Its special because in a room of hundreds she stands out still. Thers never been anyone whos more My Type. An absolutley gorgeoud girl who digs LOTR??? How the hell did i get THAT! that rocks! XD And that blush in her face and ...i jsut think hse perfect. I cant help it. Oh well maybe i'll luck out and she WIL come back and be all lovey dovey again. its def gonna be a rough while waiting tho...oh well. She is the kind of girl who has to know if the other side is greener. I hope it just looked greener from this side. Although, if this side is really as miserable as she says...naw that cant be.
#1 Zero ~ Audioslave
It hurts too much to think I really pressured her into staying and made her miserable for so long. She DID come back. I always said my two cents worth, but she always could have done what she was doing now......yeah. My dreams are going to be good tonight. heyre being fueled by a whole lot of thinking about kathryn. I always have hope every night beause nothing but how much i love her is what i remember, everything else melts away.Jerod IS a senior tho. And gilbert is sumthin new, with a slightly altered circle of friends. There are others too, all who she could choose over me. And she knows i'll always be here for her to comeback to. Whats stopping her from looking around alittle? nothin, thats what. And thats why she will be happy. Because she has total freedom.
I'll Get Even ~ Megadeth
Heh, this song...this reminds me of bike riding actually. The time i snuck out and biked like 18 miles at midnight. This song came on twice that night. It makes me want to comit a crime. Probably not a good reaction to music XD. Oh well.I can't belive how far im pushing this term paper. up until within 2 days of the due date to do the WHOLE thing. I ROCK. And oh OMG TOTALLY UNRELLATED: related to kathryn actually. Why the hell did she write sorry on like nine of my things the other day? IT was out of NOWHERE and she wouldnt say what she was sorry for and i was liike I dont UNDERSTAND. I wonder if she reads my LJ still. Thatd be pretty awkward. Its her own perogative cuz im trying to keep myself open, but she hasnt commented EVER and she never makes reference to anything i say in here, so im lead to believe she doesnt, afterall, it must be annoying hearing nothing but me pining away aoubt missing her XD.
Can You Feel The Love Tonight ~ Disney
Oh hell yeah. I think this is one of my theme songs XD This just sort of reminds of all those tender moments with kathryn in general. I dont know why this song is sad, but even when i was still with her, it was always just a little sad, evne tho it should be nothing but happy. A weird mix. Idn, im weird. what do i call this emotion that i'm feeling? This desire to see her happy and therefore having to let her go but this feeling of OMG i want to be her love and hold her in my arms and be held by hers and kiss her and whisper i love you.
CLOCKS ~ COLDPLAY
SUMMMERRR. WOOOT. Also, kathryns house cuz they play coldplay over there all the time. oooo!! my hair is long enough for a small pony tail! XD rock on!! its gettin longer XD. i loveee this song. Heres one that just overwhelms me with feeling and lets me forget everyhting. But once it ends im gonna be in an even more romantic and epic mood.
Nothing Left To Lose ~ Mat Kearney
Yeah, I miss her. I cant deny that. OH I LOVE THIS SONG, I JUST RECOGNIZED IT. "Come on and we'll sing like we are free, come on and we'll try one last time. And here we go, theres nothin left to choose, and here we go thers nothin left to lose" I love this little world i live in. Everyday i sit there and struggle thur the day and push to keep myself going, then i get to come to my quiet little home and have romantic thoughts while i sing emo songs and learn to play a guitar to crack that perfect limerick. This world, this world and my dreams, (for they are related), its all ive got until someone comes and raises me up.
Better Man ~ Pearl Jam
I love this song iwth all my heart. It sort of always makes me feel bad cuz i know kathryn is looking for a better man but...i still love this song. Its perfect. saddest song in the world, eh? Lieing that you love someone? That WOULD be terrible pain. eh...sad to think about...i know its repetitive but its my world right about now? I just go over the little info and thoughts i have, and try mto comfort myself with them.
Heres someting unique.
Same Old Lang Syne ~ Dan Fogleberg
Met my old lover in the grocery store
The snow was falling christmas eve
I stole behind her in the frozen foods
And I touched her on the sleeve
She didnt recognize the face at first
But then her eyes flew open wide
She went to hug me and she spilled her purse
And we laughed until we cried.
We took her groceries to the checkout stand
The food was totalled up and bagged
We stood there lost in our embarrassment
As the conversation dragged.
We went to have ourselves a drink or two
But couldnt find an open bar
We bought a six-pack at the liquor store
And we drank it in her car.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
And tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how.
She said shed married her an architect
Who kept her warm and safe and dry
She would have liked to say she loved the man
But she didnt like to lie.
I said the years had been a friend to her
And that her eyes were still as blue
But in those eyes I wasnt sure if I saw
Doubt or gratitude.
She said she saw me in the record stores
And that I must be doing well
I said the audience was heavenly
But the traveling was hell.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
And tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how.
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to time
Reliving in our eloquence
Another auld lang syne...
The beer was empty and our tongues were tired
And running out of things to say
She gave a kiss to me as I got out
And I watched her drive away.
Just for a moment I was back at school
And felt that old familiar pain
And as I turned to make my way back home
The snow turned into rain --
forever a sad song. "But she didnt like to lie" . Lieing about the love she tried to find away from him (makes me feel good because its like Soul Mates Exist) but then those last two stanzas...Gives him one last kiss, and that pain is still there after all those years. SChool lovers, and this guy still loves her, and it still rains when he misses her. The world is just better when theyre together. Happy, and terribly, terribly sad.
Mmm mmm mmm mmm ~ Crash Test Dummies.
Finally, a song taht doesnt remind me of kathryn at all XD Because this one is all about my childhood memories. And the analysis of this video was like: "YOU CANT HAVEA CHORUS OF JUST MMMM'S!!! THAT BREAKS ALL THE RULES!" and i was like psh shuttup this song kicks your ass. it was som VH1 ass who sits there and listens to music way too much and thinks thers "right and wrong"......ass.
Super Trouper ~ A*Teens
Never listend to it b4. This is happy ^.^ ... ^.^
So I'll be there when you arrive
The sight of you will prove to me I'm still alive
And when you take me in your arms
And hold me tight
I know it's gonna mean so much tonight
AWWWWEEEEEEE. I mean. Uhhh. Hi XD
A Pirate Looks at 40 ~ Jimmy Buffet
I wish i was a pirate.
How You Remind Me ~ NickelBack
Fuck yes. Fuck yes. Fuckin rock on. Summer kicks ass. I cannot wait. Omg memory! : It was summer or spring of last year. I was leaving kathryns house to bike home as the sun was setting. I was pumped and wearing a nic blue muscle shirt and feelin like the king of the world. I gave kathryn a kiss as she was dressed for karate and as i walked out, i slid my sunglasses on and turned around and smiled like a devonear; "are we having fun yet?" i said, with a devilish smile. Oh it was the greatest summer of my life. And i swear it started with htos words. That ride home kicked ass. I did it in about 18 minutes, 7 minutes faster tha usual. And it was BOMB. Only nickelback lit the roads with music that eve.
Seventh Grade Dance ~ Smashmouth
Sad song, but it always makes me feel a little better than when i started. Makes me feel like my old unsure self. Not livin for nothin except summer, sports, and videogames to tide me over between them. A life i liked, but i like life better when im in love. I admit that.
Hey Juliet ~ LMNT
uhhh, bomb dood? I might be a hopeless rmoantic, and this may or may not be my theme song >.> God this song makes me happy ^.^ It makes me want to be your romeo.
(oh yay song references)
Slide ~ Goo Goo Dolls
hell yeah.
Rocky Road To Dublin ~ Dropkick Murphy's
Melting Point Of Wax ~ Thrice
Spit On A Stranger ~ Nickel Creek
Not much too say...gettin tired and enjoyin the music.
Me Seaghara bar.
Sunshine.
Seven Drunken Pirates ~ Floggin Molly
i like kittens!
Firefly ~ Breaking Benjamin
I'd kill to go to a concert. This has remained constant since about 2 years ago.
I wonder if I even matter anymore. I wonder if i ever will. To her. Not just in general, b4 anyone ELSE thinks im suicidal.
L.G.Faud ~ MCS
"With my memories and photographs i have learned to love the lie"
heh.
"And if memory serves im addicted to words and they are useless."
heh.
Drift Away ~Uncle Kracker
Memory: every time ive been in the car with the windows down and the music blaring, screaming along "Gimme the beat boys and free my soul, i wanna get lost in your rock n' roll and drift away." Won't you take me away? I HATE WANTING TO SAY I LOVE YOU. HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Fuck it its my LJ she doesnt read it anyways so it cant upset her. I love her and i miss her. Fuck fuckin fuckin A. Andddd Im better now. I always wonder if its better to let theat out or keep it all buried inside.
So yeah. Me and bacon are hanging tommorow at myhouse from noon - late. If anyone cares to join us, it would be bomb im sure, just gimme a call on my house phone and let me know your coming. We'll prolly go out at some point and we'll be watching a movie or two, as well as jammin out to music and generally lovin life. Eveyone is invited, just gimme a heads up b4 you show up, anybody XD.
Fildred13: prom is just a stupid thing in the background of a life filled with happiness.
Fildred13: ignore that fuckin bullshit night
Fildred13: that wont matter at all in the scheme of things
Fildred13: and focus on having a fuckin blast
Fildred13: cuz its what we're here for.
and thats why they call me sunshine XD
Simple and Clean ~ Utadu Hikaru
I'm Not Okay ~ MCR
This has been a good night. ^.^ I got a whole lot of emotion out and im ready to bury it again for as long as neccesary ^.^ sorry to anyuone who actually trudged through the whole thing. It is more intended for my personal venting, not others to actually suffer through.
Also, Imma be bored on sunday, anyone wanna chill? I'll be mentioning that plenty through the next two days, but its worth it to start here and then spread it to my away message and then to direct plea's later.
A Whole New World ~ Alan Menken
Ah, great song ^.^
nothing but happiness and love here.
If You Want To Soar With The Eagles In The Mornings, You Can't Hoot With The Owls At Night.
I still have hope. how sad?...nah
camonn An Cnivic ~ Green Hill
<3 yeah <3
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