"just like every other guy"

[fijimitch]

i fuckin hate that phrase...

I've heard it too many times...

How can a girl truly expect that to change your mentality?

It makes me want to throw my phone at my wall, and never speak to that person again...

I'm fucked up, i have issues, who doesn't? I don't claim to be perfect...

I had something good, but i messed it up, yea, i'll take the blame, but i don't deserve to be treated like shit, ya know? I didn't have to tell her, but it was the right thing to do... It wouldn't happen again, but how can i prove that? I know in my heart it wouldn't, but why would she believe that?

I battle in my head if i should have told her, but i know i did the right thing.

GRRR!!!!

I tested the relationship, and i don't think it's strong enough to hold.

I don't know if she can ever let it go...

Why can't i give up on this relationship?

Why can't i say, i fucked up, sorry, better luck next time?

I'm not really looking for answers or responses on this lj update, sometimes, you just want to say something and not have anyone say anything back...