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Have you seen me cry tears like diamonds
Down and down they fly, faster and faster like the speed of our love
Batting a thousand, but a homerun crack at love
This is where I tell you that, I know love's what I need to work at.
So true.
Well life has been great, actually. 6 lbs to my goal weight of 130. I look and feel amazing. Work is fairing better, and my three month probationary period is over. Shift leader training, is in the works.
I got lucky with the courts, and now I don't have to spend 220 bucks. Don't ask me how that happened when I show up to find my court date was indeed that monday morning, and not tuesday as thought.
Either way, no bench warrant. 220 bucks for my future car!!!!!
I'm starting to miss every single thing about Brian. I don't know what to do at this point. I wish he could tell me he doesn't want to speak to me, or tell me he does want to continue to talk to me. Something. I still see his name on my instant messenger list.
The biggest misunderstanding ever, and I think I lost him. I'm pretty sure it's over for good. No matter how much of my heart was in it. No matter how much work I put into being with him.
I was falling so very deeply for him. I could list so many things I loved about him. I could list all the things I was doing to better myself, my life, and the relationship, that I prayed he would notice. I still pray he does.
The relationship status, though it does ward off men, was not the sole reason. It was because I didn't want anyone else. I chose Brian, only him.
Real men like Brian, don't exist outside of Brian. Least, I have not come close to finding someone like him. Not in my entire lifetime.
He made me so happy. And I did everything I could to make him happy too.
I'm far from perfect, and that is made obvious. I'm still capable of change.
Brian S. Johnson, I will never forget you. With tears filling my eyes, and my heart aching, I will never forget.
Down and down they fly, faster and faster like the speed of our love
Batting a thousand, but a homerun crack at love
This is where I tell you that, I know love's what I need to work at.
So true.
Well life has been great, actually. 6 lbs to my goal weight of 130. I look and feel amazing. Work is fairing better, and my three month probationary period is over. Shift leader training, is in the works.
I got lucky with the courts, and now I don't have to spend 220 bucks. Don't ask me how that happened when I show up to find my court date was indeed that monday morning, and not tuesday as thought.
Either way, no bench warrant. 220 bucks for my future car!!!!!
I'm starting to miss every single thing about Brian. I don't know what to do at this point. I wish he could tell me he doesn't want to speak to me, or tell me he does want to continue to talk to me. Something. I still see his name on my instant messenger list.
The biggest misunderstanding ever, and I think I lost him. I'm pretty sure it's over for good. No matter how much of my heart was in it. No matter how much work I put into being with him.
I was falling so very deeply for him. I could list so many things I loved about him. I could list all the things I was doing to better myself, my life, and the relationship, that I prayed he would notice. I still pray he does.
The relationship status, though it does ward off men, was not the sole reason. It was because I didn't want anyone else. I chose Brian, only him.
Real men like Brian, don't exist outside of Brian. Least, I have not come close to finding someone like him. Not in my entire lifetime.
He made me so happy. And I did everything I could to make him happy too.
I'm far from perfect, and that is made obvious. I'm still capable of change.
Brian S. Johnson, I will never forget you. With tears filling my eyes, and my heart aching, I will never forget.