I am doing well..
However, this hurts so much more than I thought it would.
A week has gone by and it was easier before not talking to you. Now, it feels more like a loss.
I'm not empty. I'm not unhappy, I just....miss him. I miss everything. I'll never get to teach him how to cook. I'll never feel his hands all over me. His passionate kisses. Long for his body. Look into his eyes which held me.
I'll never get to beat him at Super Smash Bros. Play DnD. Go to conventions. Movies. Cook him dinner. Paintball. It's gone. It's over?
Did I really deserve this?
Seems like my offenses were small in comparison to things other girls have done or do. I, misunderstood you Epically on where we stood. For that, I lose you completely?
Even if, I was willing to stick in there? Completely trusting you? I'm not perfect. I'm only working towards bettering myself and my life. I wanted to bring you into this growing life. See me do greater things. Be a part of my life, apart from it.
Did I ever once accuse you of sleeping with other women? I didn't even think it.
So why did you do this when I was willing to make the changes to keep you in my life? You weren't there to see everything. You didn't talk to me enough to know. How I kept most others noses out of our business, and never let their opinions sway me from what I knew was the right decision.
BTW, You were the best decision I made all year. I don't regret you. Nothing has changed how I feel about you. Nothing.
I, didn't want anyone else. No one came close. No one compared. I thought you knew that.
It's late, and I'm tired and cold. Had a great night out with friends, and still I thought of you.
One day they will fade, I suppose.
One thing, that always breaks my heart, is...when I see someone I truly care about give up on me. I'm not dead. Tell me this isn't the Final Fantasy, Final Destination, or The Last Stop.
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
This wouldn't hurt if everything about you, felt so right to me.
Your name still shows up on instant messenger, and I was sure you blocked me as you did here and on FB. I'm not ready to say hello, or ask you about your week. I'll wait. I'll respect the time apart, as a great lesson learned. Til you're ready to speak to me again.
Did you really think, I'd run away?
A week has gone by and it was easier before not talking to you. Now, it feels more like a loss.
I'm not empty. I'm not unhappy, I just....miss him. I miss everything. I'll never get to teach him how to cook. I'll never feel his hands all over me. His passionate kisses. Long for his body. Look into his eyes which held me.
I'll never get to beat him at Super Smash Bros. Play DnD. Go to conventions. Movies. Cook him dinner. Paintball. It's gone. It's over?
Did I really deserve this?
Seems like my offenses were small in comparison to things other girls have done or do. I, misunderstood you Epically on where we stood. For that, I lose you completely?
Even if, I was willing to stick in there? Completely trusting you? I'm not perfect. I'm only working towards bettering myself and my life. I wanted to bring you into this growing life. See me do greater things. Be a part of my life, apart from it.
Did I ever once accuse you of sleeping with other women? I didn't even think it.
So why did you do this when I was willing to make the changes to keep you in my life? You weren't there to see everything. You didn't talk to me enough to know. How I kept most others noses out of our business, and never let their opinions sway me from what I knew was the right decision.
BTW, You were the best decision I made all year. I don't regret you. Nothing has changed how I feel about you. Nothing.
I, didn't want anyone else. No one came close. No one compared. I thought you knew that.
It's late, and I'm tired and cold. Had a great night out with friends, and still I thought of you.
One day they will fade, I suppose.
One thing, that always breaks my heart, is...when I see someone I truly care about give up on me. I'm not dead. Tell me this isn't the Final Fantasy, Final Destination, or The Last Stop.
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
This wouldn't hurt if everything about you, felt so right to me.
Your name still shows up on instant messenger, and I was sure you blocked me as you did here and on FB. I'm not ready to say hello, or ask you about your week. I'll wait. I'll respect the time apart, as a great lesson learned. Til you're ready to speak to me again.
Did you really think, I'd run away?