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I can bear to hear the truth that you have spoken,
twisted by this knave, this fool that I am capable of being.
This is space.
How far away am I now? Okay.
You have EVERY right to feel angry (i.e. Mean Enimem song, insults). I have expressed/expressing remorse still for being so stupid. Told you that I would like to continue this with more clarity, I realize I was trying to rush that decision, so...
Though I will not be completely silenced on LJ, I'll be patient.
Difference between "annoying" and me is...
Not being completely silent per se. Not speaking of the matter to further the dramatics either. Respecting your boundaries. I ask you of the same though I might not deserve it. I'm not angry with your words, no, it's not that. I mean, Meat Shield, was NEVER what you are. Though I do let out a little chuckle because the words "Meat Shield" are indeed funny. You ARE more than that, you know it. I know it.
I don't want to react to your anger, with more bad harmful feelings/things to say. Add fuel to the fire of drama. Why did you write that? Do you want me to get pissed off? Do you want me lower myself to you completely and beg for forgiveness? That would make me desperate. Needy. No buenos nachos.
So I will stop talking about you, and to you for awhile if that is what is asked of me. Till you are ready to come to a decision. Stay as friends, cut all ties, or continue on absolutely crystal clear on where we are now. I am hoping for the last one.
(You know I'm filled with remorse, and expressed desire to make it right. There is nothing else that I can say from this point to right the wrong. Only what I can do from here forward. I hope you have a great week. I hope I haven't broken your good spirit.)
I've been apathetic, and I've come to that realization in all my relationships. Distant, and there are reasons for them of course. Issues, I am working on. Getting there...still just, getting there. I know, only somethings. I've been completely humbled by all who care for me.
Including yourself.
My patience, and my complete respect/care for you is here.
twisted by this knave, this fool that I am capable of being.
This is space.
How far away am I now? Okay.
You have EVERY right to feel angry (i.e. Mean Enimem song, insults). I have expressed/expressing remorse still for being so stupid. Told you that I would like to continue this with more clarity, I realize I was trying to rush that decision, so...
Though I will not be completely silenced on LJ, I'll be patient.
Difference between "annoying" and me is...
Not being completely silent per se. Not speaking of the matter to further the dramatics either. Respecting your boundaries. I ask you of the same though I might not deserve it. I'm not angry with your words, no, it's not that. I mean, Meat Shield, was NEVER what you are. Though I do let out a little chuckle because the words "Meat Shield" are indeed funny. You ARE more than that, you know it. I know it.
I don't want to react to your anger, with more bad harmful feelings/things to say. Add fuel to the fire of drama. Why did you write that? Do you want me to get pissed off? Do you want me lower myself to you completely and beg for forgiveness? That would make me desperate. Needy. No buenos nachos.
So I will stop talking about you, and to you for awhile if that is what is asked of me. Till you are ready to come to a decision. Stay as friends, cut all ties, or continue on absolutely crystal clear on where we are now. I am hoping for the last one.
(You know I'm filled with remorse, and expressed desire to make it right. There is nothing else that I can say from this point to right the wrong. Only what I can do from here forward. I hope you have a great week. I hope I haven't broken your good spirit.)
I've been apathetic, and I've come to that realization in all my relationships. Distant, and there are reasons for them of course. Issues, I am working on. Getting there...still just, getting there. I know, only somethings. I've been completely humbled by all who care for me.
Including yourself.
My patience, and my complete respect/care for you is here.