hhhmmm.......

[figorm_3]

Well, what can i really say...besides this not being my best vacation week at all...it would be really hard to say how much i miss a person right now...of course you guys know who...yeah...Willie...lets see...Friday i went to go see him, couldn't because the Main Adult Detention Facility was on lock down when arrived there and i couldn't go see him...Saturday, i went and it wasn't his visiting day because it goes by alphabetical order...Sunday, i went and finally got to see him and damn...never have i felt so many emotions over me and wishing that i could just hug and kiss him but i couldn't because of the damn glass that was seperating us...also to find out what he was being charged for..damn it...but i was more than relieved to see him...but more i couldn't understand why he took the blame and i asked him that, also that he should tell the truth but he said he couldn't now, "i can't marlene, you know i can't now, you know what will happen if i tell the truth"...and unfortunately, I do know...also he said, "i didn't mean for this to happen, i didn't even want this to happen, all i wanted was to go home, if i could stop all this from happening i would"...on Wednesday, i went to his court and i know he was surprised to see me i could tell from the look on his face...and i could see that he was happy to see me there...they're going to finish on Monday, so until then i have to wait what's going to happen to him...but when we were all leavin, and we had to walk out of the court room, all we could do was just stare at each other...uncertain of what was going to happen and all we could do was just stare as i was walking out of the court room...i didn't know what to think or what to do...for once in my life i felt helpless in not being able to help him...but i have to wait...all i can do is wait.

i'm sorry you guys (karina, ricky, mayela, ricky's mom), i really really wanted to be there but i just couldn't, i'm sorry. hopefully next time i can go