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ok so i had one of the strangest dreams ever last night. i dreamt that i was at something like All-State Orchestra and all of a sudden I was the concert master. And we were going to play Orphus (anyway I def played an easier verison of it in 8th grade). I was freaking out because I hadn't really practiced and I haven't ever tuned an orchestra. I didn't think I remembered who went first and sometimes the winds/brass don't tune to an A. I woke up just as the last person went on stage, leaving me alone to wait until everything calmed down to make my entry.
i was listening to orchestral music last night... so I'm guessing that's where part of it came from. But honestly I felt my heart racing and the panic. I was going to be concert master and I wasn't sure I could really play the song all that much. I was just going to BS it like I did at All-County and things like that. I was so scared.
i talked to jeff last night to see how he was. i don't know what to do about him. and then while he was talking bad about Adrian, I had to watch how much I supported him. I tried to comfort Jeff that Adrian hasn't really had to the time to call me either. oh man oh man...
what is it- less than 40 days until I'm back at JMU? maybe I can finally talk to Adrian when he gets back to JMU. I'm tempted if he actually does call me... to tell him that I do need to talk to him, but at this point I might as well wait until we're back at school. I want to have his attention when I tell him.
i was listening to orchestral music last night... so I'm guessing that's where part of it came from. But honestly I felt my heart racing and the panic. I was going to be concert master and I wasn't sure I could really play the song all that much. I was just going to BS it like I did at All-County and things like that. I was so scared.
i talked to jeff last night to see how he was. i don't know what to do about him. and then while he was talking bad about Adrian, I had to watch how much I supported him. I tried to comfort Jeff that Adrian hasn't really had to the time to call me either. oh man oh man...
what is it- less than 40 days until I'm back at JMU? maybe I can finally talk to Adrian when he gets back to JMU. I'm tempted if he actually does call me... to tell him that I do need to talk to him, but at this point I might as well wait until we're back at school. I want to have his attention when I tell him.