Ugh lee foo
Ugh. I am sick. And my throat hurts and I feel icky. And I always have these "Kynna on acid" dreams when I am sick, and htis time is no different. My throat hurts, my eyes hurt, and I feel not well and whiney. And I have play practice for every day basically (yes, weekends too) until we open. Which is what I signed up for I know, but still sad. And the other day I got ditched which just made me further realize how crap my "position" is. I am like the court jester of the theater world. People like me around because I make them laugh etc off stage and have fun and joke around. But, when the end of the day comes, no one wants to hang out or wait for me. Why? Because I am momentary entertainment. I am not good for a conversation, I am only good to be the television show they can only turn off by leaving. I hate being an expendable friend. But then maybe it is better than being invisible.