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i rarely update this thing anymore. probably because no one really comments on it. whatever.
i have had bronchitis since december twenty second. this past tuesday i was prescribed antibiotics and STEROIDS! because my lungs suck. i am still hacking my life away and am in pretty much constant chest pain and can't breathe. it's fucking sick. literally.
right now i am playing fable ii. and by playing fable ii, i mean i played it for an hour and a half and now julio is playing it. it's funny because he is a female character and he's buying me hair and skirts and thigh-high boots and stuff. he just commented that i "look pretty good." awesome.
since my last update i have not done much, except see carolyn berk, as previously mentioned in my last entry. it was a religious experience. she didn't play any old songs, or any i had even heard before aside from "take off your shoes," but it was okay. her voice is about 170% better live. i shook her hand and i am in love with her though she has very, very hairy armpits. it's so serious that i carry in my wallet the piece of paper she enclosed with my order of all three of her albums which says, "thanks for your order. xo carolyn." i think i may have a problem. i also went to PHILADELPHIA which was great, because i love philadelphia, and i got to see a lot of pretty ladies i haven't seen in a while. and james. he's not a pretty lady, but whatever. i went there with my friend allison to pick up her fiance, who i don't think is any longer her fiance. in fact, she and i are now getting hitched. i swear i'm not a lesbian.
julio and i went to pennsylvania for post-christmas. our first objective was to travel to the big city of scranton and see four year strong and set your goals. it was fun. the rest of the weekend, not so much. i guess it was nice to get away from the bronx, but it was pretty boring. especially because i didn't see anyone, except for at the show, and i hate them. most of all, i am upset because i miss my dog A LOT. i was happy to find that he not only remembered me but still wanted to sleep with me every night, and wouldn't even wake up to my mom trying to feed him. yay!
christmas in general was not very spectacular, especially since it was my sickest of days. :(
i have made several new year's resolutions, which i will conveniently list here for future reference:
- be 100% honest, unless it will unnecessarily hurt someone else's feelings
- be a better person in general
- redefine god as something that i want [sorry, this is a lovers reference. but i do feel like i had more faith in myself when i believed in something.]
- be less crazy [mostly for julio's sake]
- get a good job
- get back into school
- find motivation [aka be less lazy]
- be more optimistic!
- be HAPPY :D
monday i am going to westchester community college to apply. i do not think i'll be able to get in because of the status of my previous loans. :( this means i lose health insurance under my dad, which sucks, especially since i am on crazy medicine which i kindof need. i probably could have solved all of this a while ago but laziness prevailed. whatever. i guess my roosters have come to eat my face off, or something. all i know is that i am tired of being le sad all the time, and not doing anything or going anywhere, and feeling totally and completely useless and unwanted and crazy, and being a lazy fuck. i guess there is an opportunity to change at every millisecond of every day; it's unfortunate that i often wait until i see a specific time to do anything to improve my life. it's funny how i always promote the ability to change your life at any moment, though i don't live by it. here's to trying?
i have had bronchitis since december twenty second. this past tuesday i was prescribed antibiotics and STEROIDS! because my lungs suck. i am still hacking my life away and am in pretty much constant chest pain and can't breathe. it's fucking sick. literally.
right now i am playing fable ii. and by playing fable ii, i mean i played it for an hour and a half and now julio is playing it. it's funny because he is a female character and he's buying me hair and skirts and thigh-high boots and stuff. he just commented that i "look pretty good." awesome.
since my last update i have not done much, except see carolyn berk, as previously mentioned in my last entry. it was a religious experience. she didn't play any old songs, or any i had even heard before aside from "take off your shoes," but it was okay. her voice is about 170% better live. i shook her hand and i am in love with her though she has very, very hairy armpits. it's so serious that i carry in my wallet the piece of paper she enclosed with my order of all three of her albums which says, "thanks for your order. xo carolyn." i think i may have a problem. i also went to PHILADELPHIA which was great, because i love philadelphia, and i got to see a lot of pretty ladies i haven't seen in a while. and james. he's not a pretty lady, but whatever. i went there with my friend allison to pick up her fiance, who i don't think is any longer her fiance. in fact, she and i are now getting hitched. i swear i'm not a lesbian.
julio and i went to pennsylvania for post-christmas. our first objective was to travel to the big city of scranton and see four year strong and set your goals. it was fun. the rest of the weekend, not so much. i guess it was nice to get away from the bronx, but it was pretty boring. especially because i didn't see anyone, except for at the show, and i hate them. most of all, i am upset because i miss my dog A LOT. i was happy to find that he not only remembered me but still wanted to sleep with me every night, and wouldn't even wake up to my mom trying to feed him. yay!
christmas in general was not very spectacular, especially since it was my sickest of days. :(
i have made several new year's resolutions, which i will conveniently list here for future reference:
- be 100% honest, unless it will unnecessarily hurt someone else's feelings
- be a better person in general
- redefine god as something that i want [sorry, this is a lovers reference. but i do feel like i had more faith in myself when i believed in something.]
- be less crazy [mostly for julio's sake]
- get a good job
- get back into school
- find motivation [aka be less lazy]
- be more optimistic!
- be HAPPY :D
monday i am going to westchester community college to apply. i do not think i'll be able to get in because of the status of my previous loans. :( this means i lose health insurance under my dad, which sucks, especially since i am on crazy medicine which i kindof need. i probably could have solved all of this a while ago but laziness prevailed. whatever. i guess my roosters have come to eat my face off, or something. all i know is that i am tired of being le sad all the time, and not doing anything or going anywhere, and feeling totally and completely useless and unwanted and crazy, and being a lazy fuck. i guess there is an opportunity to change at every millisecond of every day; it's unfortunate that i often wait until i see a specific time to do anything to improve my life. it's funny how i always promote the ability to change your life at any moment, though i don't live by it. here's to trying?