when busy streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy
i need a job.
my cousin died two weeks ago of a heroin/cocaine/xanax cocktail. apparently this is a mix to stay away from. he was only 18 years old and i guess i have felt like shit since i found out. especially because since i moved back to the bronx i could have spent so much more time with him, but there's nothing i can do about that now. it just makes you realize a lot, when someone dies that young. it's a shame.
there's a lot of drama on the homefront. dad is in court right now for his dui [during which his blood alcohol level was a whopping 2.32!] and is likely to be in jail for a couple of days. he'll also probably have his license taken away and won't get it back until he pays some ridiculous fine. i wish i could be there to help them right now but i am not ready to leave here yet. i need to feel like things are okay, constantly, in every situation. i need assurance. and i don't have any of that right now.
olga left for her homeland last night, and i didn't even get to say goodbye. :( i am very upset about this but i am sure she will have a better time there than i will here. <3
i really wish i had some place to just get away to. i miss my old room. i am currently stealing wi-fi from julio's back porch in the sun, because i don't want to wake him. living with someone is hard. i need a large sum of money.
my cousin died two weeks ago of a heroin/cocaine/xanax cocktail. apparently this is a mix to stay away from. he was only 18 years old and i guess i have felt like shit since i found out. especially because since i moved back to the bronx i could have spent so much more time with him, but there's nothing i can do about that now. it just makes you realize a lot, when someone dies that young. it's a shame.
there's a lot of drama on the homefront. dad is in court right now for his dui [during which his blood alcohol level was a whopping 2.32!] and is likely to be in jail for a couple of days. he'll also probably have his license taken away and won't get it back until he pays some ridiculous fine. i wish i could be there to help them right now but i am not ready to leave here yet. i need to feel like things are okay, constantly, in every situation. i need assurance. and i don't have any of that right now.
olga left for her homeland last night, and i didn't even get to say goodbye. :( i am very upset about this but i am sure she will have a better time there than i will here. <3
i really wish i had some place to just get away to. i miss my old room. i am currently stealing wi-fi from julio's back porch in the sun, because i don't want to wake him. living with someone is hard. i need a large sum of money.