It's always been up to you.. It's turning around, it's up to me.

[fighttolive]

I've never been so unlonely in my entire life and there isn't one person in my life that I have any romantic interest in and I'm loving this feeling. It's so settling and profound to actually be in control of my own damn happiness. It doesn't depend on one single person, nobody. I accomplished a lot today, gained a massive amount of self-confidence, hung out with an old friend since 5th grade, told some random dude he was hot, worked out and I had a blast. It's so freeing to just be happy to be alive and not happy because of someone else or something else and it's especially rejuvenating not to need anything to make me happy besides what is within my power to obtain on my own.

How many people can say they know what this is like? And this time last month I wanted to end it all and I never believed I'd be happy again but as I look back and more importantly look forward, I am so invigorated and honestly, more happy than I ever was. This happiness is real and it is permanent because I made it happen for myself and no one else.

I want to spread this feeling, I want to make people happy.