How long will this high last?

[fighttolive]

Wow. There's so much I want to say but I'll say this. I've changed so much in the past month and even with all the shit I've had to go through at the hands of someone else, I've still come out strong and rejuvenated. I've become what I never thought I'd be and I've accomplished stuff I never would've awhile ago. I could never go back to the way things were now and I never will, I don't want to. Some people refuse to believe that my life is actually pretty damn good and they want to think they will play a role in fucking it up but they won't. I've made shit happen on my own without the help or harm of anyone else and I'm impassioned. I wish everyone could feel this way but a lot of people are so unhappy they have to try to make other people unhappy to make themselves feel good. They try and try unsuccessfully but you think they'd be happy enough to move on with their lives. I'm glad I am happy and content enough to move on and not look back. Last night was proof to me that I am a different person and the person I was in the past isn't anyone I ever want to be again. I've come too far and I only want to get better.

I'm not trying to say that one experience validates my whole existence but I gained some clarity and insight into who I am and my limits as a person. I truly feel like in the past weeks, I've grown so much as a person and as a girl. I never thought I'd gain so much from losing something. I just can't be angry or hurt, or hold anything against anyone because I've bounced back and there's no time to hate anyone.

Everything happens for a reason. Believe it.