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Summer has been to good to me.
Lately Ive realized how truly awesome my friends are.
Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday have all been fantastic days and nights of going to the beach, hanging out, being crazy, etc.
Today was the first day I didnt really do anything, because I had work all night and just sat around dreading it all day.
I was playing World of Warcraft a rather unhealthy amount during this past semester, and im glad that is passing. It made me put a lot of stuff off to the side, especially hanging out with friends. Or just not wanting to leave my house.(Yes I was a huge nerd, and still am because video games rule). But anyways, I feel way more free, the game was becoming like a chore in a way. And now ive spent almost my entire summer with my friends so far, and I love that.
I was at my church last night until 1am, we were sitting on the roof under the stars talking about random religious topics, the most intruiging being our perception of a more accurate representation of hell...that being a complete seperation from God, which is hard to understand because even if you feel like the worst person in the world, even if you ARE the worst person in the world, there is still some connection to God.
If that connection is severed completely, what is left? It is nothing, complete and utter nothingness. You are completely alone, you will always be completely alone and you will always know that you will be completely alone. It is eternal solitary confinement that the most modern jail system can not even replicate. You have no vision, no feeling, no direction, no movement. Just a mind left to torture itself, in regret, forever. Those are some of the things we came up with, its just conjecture obviously, but far more frightening when you truly think about it. And I wish it upon no one.
Sorry for the downer, if youre still reading anyway.
I really want to quote part of a song from Jesus Wept, "Thank God theres more to life than this..."
Its sort of cliche on the surface, but the way its presented in the song really makes come to life.
Theres so much more to life.
If I continued to think that this world and this way we live and the sick things we do is all there is to offer, and how sick and frustrated I get at living it, and living in it, I would be endlessly depressed, apathetic and at a loss for all meaning. And thats when those lyrics become real to me.
Praise God for hope.
Hope.
It seems trivial to write about random things im looking forward to over the next week or two, but I believe in meaning and therefore these are meaningful in some way haha.
-Dont have any big plans for the weekend, but I know it will be filled with fun.
-Monday is Six Flags!!
-Next week is my last week working at In N Out
-And next week will most likely be starting my new job.
In closing, id like to say that if youve been my friend, even if it was for a short time, or even if weve never really met, or even if were best friends, youve probably influenced me in some way, large or small, and I wouldnt be who I am without my friends. So I guess I want to just say thanks, and that I love you.
Lately Ive realized how truly awesome my friends are.
Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday have all been fantastic days and nights of going to the beach, hanging out, being crazy, etc.
Today was the first day I didnt really do anything, because I had work all night and just sat around dreading it all day.
I was playing World of Warcraft a rather unhealthy amount during this past semester, and im glad that is passing. It made me put a lot of stuff off to the side, especially hanging out with friends. Or just not wanting to leave my house.(Yes I was a huge nerd, and still am because video games rule). But anyways, I feel way more free, the game was becoming like a chore in a way. And now ive spent almost my entire summer with my friends so far, and I love that.
I was at my church last night until 1am, we were sitting on the roof under the stars talking about random religious topics, the most intruiging being our perception of a more accurate representation of hell...that being a complete seperation from God, which is hard to understand because even if you feel like the worst person in the world, even if you ARE the worst person in the world, there is still some connection to God.
If that connection is severed completely, what is left? It is nothing, complete and utter nothingness. You are completely alone, you will always be completely alone and you will always know that you will be completely alone. It is eternal solitary confinement that the most modern jail system can not even replicate. You have no vision, no feeling, no direction, no movement. Just a mind left to torture itself, in regret, forever. Those are some of the things we came up with, its just conjecture obviously, but far more frightening when you truly think about it. And I wish it upon no one.
Sorry for the downer, if youre still reading anyway.
I really want to quote part of a song from Jesus Wept, "Thank God theres more to life than this..."
Its sort of cliche on the surface, but the way its presented in the song really makes come to life.
Theres so much more to life.
If I continued to think that this world and this way we live and the sick things we do is all there is to offer, and how sick and frustrated I get at living it, and living in it, I would be endlessly depressed, apathetic and at a loss for all meaning. And thats when those lyrics become real to me.
Praise God for hope.
Hope.
It seems trivial to write about random things im looking forward to over the next week or two, but I believe in meaning and therefore these are meaningful in some way haha.
-Dont have any big plans for the weekend, but I know it will be filled with fun.
-Monday is Six Flags!!
-Next week is my last week working at In N Out
-And next week will most likely be starting my new job.
In closing, id like to say that if youve been my friend, even if it was for a short time, or even if weve never really met, or even if were best friends, youve probably influenced me in some way, large or small, and I wouldnt be who I am without my friends. So I guess I want to just say thanks, and that I love you.