starting fresh
ok so im starting fresh...today is my day for new beginnings..im just gonna try and forget about the past few months..dont get me wrong ive learned alot from them but im tired of all the B S that has happened to me during them..SOOOO this is me moving on for good..im not looking back anymore theres no point it wont get me to where im going... it will only hurt me like it has the past few months....
you know what i did realize here lately tho..ive realized how blind and stupid i really am. you think i would learn after the first time.but im still like a child i dont understand so i do it again..hmmm let see the oven is on but i bet its not hott so lets touch it a few good times and burn the crap out of my hand..YEAH THATS ME..minus the oven and all the burning..but you get the point im trying to make..RIGHT??
i set myself up for failure..but today is different...you wanna know what im changing about me!!!
well if you do keep reading if not then stop!!!
MY NEW LIFE!!!!
the first main thing i am going to change is my walk with the Lord, He has been so good to me yet i treat Him so wrong..Im so sorry Lord for my ways!!
2ndly im changing ME totally..i dont know what i have become someone im ashamed of.
3rdly i am not going out each day looking for love anymore..i think i can find it anywhere and thats my problem i keep finding these people who dont want me they only want what they want....AKA..THE SEX!!
and im not that easy i mean yeah it feels good to be wanted that way..but its not worth the quilt..so enough with horny men..haha.
4th thing is once i do search for love again..he will be everything i wanted and more..im not settling anymore and i will make it CLEAR to him that i am waiting till im married to DO IT..GEZZ..
5th..there is so much more..but this will probably be the last i write..i want to be a better daughter/sister/friend/christian/student/ME...i have failed at all of these....and im sorry to all those i have hurt....I LOVE YOU ALL and PLEASE keep me in your prayers i need it..
MAJOR LOVE 2 YOU GUYS!!!!
you know what i did realize here lately tho..ive realized how blind and stupid i really am. you think i would learn after the first time.but im still like a child i dont understand so i do it again..hmmm let see the oven is on but i bet its not hott so lets touch it a few good times and burn the crap out of my hand..YEAH THATS ME..minus the oven and all the burning..but you get the point im trying to make..RIGHT??
i set myself up for failure..but today is different...you wanna know what im changing about me!!!
well if you do keep reading if not then stop!!!
MY NEW LIFE!!!!
the first main thing i am going to change is my walk with the Lord, He has been so good to me yet i treat Him so wrong..Im so sorry Lord for my ways!!
2ndly im changing ME totally..i dont know what i have become someone im ashamed of.
3rdly i am not going out each day looking for love anymore..i think i can find it anywhere and thats my problem i keep finding these people who dont want me they only want what they want....AKA..THE SEX!!
and im not that easy i mean yeah it feels good to be wanted that way..but its not worth the quilt..so enough with horny men..haha.
4th thing is once i do search for love again..he will be everything i wanted and more..im not settling anymore and i will make it CLEAR to him that i am waiting till im married to DO IT..GEZZ..
5th..there is so much more..but this will probably be the last i write..i want to be a better daughter/sister/friend/christian/student/ME...i have failed at all of these....and im sorry to all those i have hurt....I LOVE YOU ALL and PLEASE keep me in your prayers i need it..
MAJOR LOVE 2 YOU GUYS!!!!