hiyo!!!
yeah im writing this one to tell everyone that im gettin kicked outta my house. yeah it really sux. i mean, my mom did say that i could stay at the house if i pay rent or if i do register for college. but that was after she put on this big front about how im gonna get kicked outt the house. so now i really wanna leave and im tryin to. i just need a place to stay until i can go to basic for the airforce. and yes, i said until i go to basic for the air force. i need a paycheck and a place to stay. so that seems like a good alternative to me. i know that this disppionts a lot of people, especially my grandparents, and i think that im not gonna tell them until after the fact. but this way i can marry sonia and do all that i want and mebbe even see different parts of the world if im feeling really ambitious. im actually kinda excited about it cuz ill have a place to stay at and i been thinkin about how i wanna decorate and what not. i mean, out gate its gonna be kinda bare because we will just be startin out, but then it will get better and all that. and me and sonia can actually stay in the same bed for the night, and the night after that, and the night after that. i do look forward to sleepin with her without actuallt sleepin with her... you know what i mean. i have made up my mind and decided on this. and im ready for it. and i get to work with computers which i like. and i will prolly be makin a lot of money. reason for my thinkin is cuz the better the MOS you get, the more you get paid...right? well i took the practice ASVAB and i got a 77 and everyone has been tellin me that you do better on the real thing than the practice cuz there are more questions therefore leavin more room for error. and when i talked to my recruiter and i told her that i got a 77 he said that was pretty damn good... excellent.... borderline "do whatever i wanna do" kinda thing. so yeah, im not too worried about it. me=genius, even though im too modest to admit it. that and im good at takin tests. i dont get all scared and nervious with them. i act like its a normal thing. no biggie. lol. this will be fun. well imma go back to enjoyin my drink while i listen to music and talk to this lil 15 year old girl that tim's g/f brought over. and no for all you that have dirty minds and are deprived sex, i dont mean "talkin to her". i mean holdin a conversation with her because everyone else in the house is fuckin and its kinda awkward just sittin here doing nothing. dont worry sonia... im not on that r-kelly shit. and i love you very very much. more than i love my new mp3 player that i bought. yes... i seem to have enough money to buy a mp3 player... even though im movin out. lol. great aint it. gettin paid 800-900 a month aint that bad.
love you sonia. im glad that i have you in my life and im sorry that i was trippin about aaron being over and what not. i just cant get rid of those tendancies because of the insecure man that i am. i love you and trust you all the same though. i dont want you to think for a min that my trust in you wavered. i just have some personal issues to work out... mainly why i dont think that im capable of keepin such a lovely, beautiful, sexy, smart, and funny woman as yourself in my grasp. but i try.... and i think that's what does it. i love you sonia. i look forward to our christmas with eachother. later baby.
love you sonia. im glad that i have you in my life and im sorry that i was trippin about aaron being over and what not. i just cant get rid of those tendancies because of the insecure man that i am. i love you and trust you all the same though. i dont want you to think for a min that my trust in you wavered. i just have some personal issues to work out... mainly why i dont think that im capable of keepin such a lovely, beautiful, sexy, smart, and funny woman as yourself in my grasp. but i try.... and i think that's what does it. i love you sonia. i look forward to our christmas with eachother. later baby.