Fresh Start

[fighting_wotsit]

Let's try this again, shall we?

Okay.

In all honesty I'm not in the mood for spilling all on here but any of you that have followed me for a while and are actually reading this will know that I went downhill about two and a half years ago. Things got worse. Now they seem to be getting better. I'm relaxing a bit. I've kind of restarted everything on

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[catpaws]

Darling, go read my latest post if you will. It contains an explanation, as poor and jumbled as it might be. You don't have to, of course, especially since it's rather long, but I'd really appreciate it if you did. I could try explaining it here all over again, maybe paraphrase it, but this has already been enough of a roller coaster ride for one night.

Thank you for being so understanding and loving and just generally supportive, even though I fail at all that myself. I, too, wish I could just squeeze you right now. Because it feels like my heart is going to burst.

"Even if we are separated by our fandoms we will still have our friendship and memories and each other."

Rationally, I know this, but emotionally, I can't help but feel that if I don't work my ass off to connect with people, they will eventually just forget about me and abandon me and stop loving me because I'm otherwise so boring and hateable as a person. And it's tearing me apart, oh god. It really is.

"I love you. I hope things settle for you soon, and if I gave you too much love then I'm sorry."

Never. There is never too much love to give, especially if it's going from you to me (or vice verse, as is happening right now).

[fighting_wotsit]

You have always been supportive to me even if you did not know it, and I have always felt loved by you.

Let me work my ass off. Right now you need to take a step back and work through all of the things going on in your life. Take a deep breath, because right now you should relax and I will take care of you. I will always love you. We have both changed greatly over the years we have known each other, and I can never ever find you boring or hateable. You are too much of a good friend.

I'm sending love and hugs. The warmth of my scarf is the warmth of my adoration for you.

[catpaws]

♥