struggling

[fightforlife]

Have you ever got the feeling that the things you do always end up hurting others? I have, i can't get rid of the guilt i feel when i do stuff. Is it alright to be happy... or is it selfish to feel ok when you're the only one able to feel ok... I don't know. I do my best to be good to everyone around me, even when their not good to me. I try to picture myself in their position, i must be rough to have someone like me around, so i just take the shit they give me, i don't want them to feel bad. But sometimes the feeling creeps inside of me, the feeling that i should do something to make myself happy and for once care about myself... but what if i break their hearts,
should i, would i, couldt i?.....
i wish i couldt