GAAAAWWWWWDDDDD
God, I hate people who just don't care. Who just don't even try! Can't they recognize when something is really important to you? Or even if it's not life and death, just something that they'd really enjoy or they would really like to experience?
And then you just SIT there and you don't even try. While they fucking bend over backwards trying to make things work and you just SIT THERE. I MEAN I MADE FUCKING PLANS. I ASKED FOR FUCKING CONFORMATIONS. I just wanted to go! And then nothing.
Not even an apology. Even if you don't mean it, maybe just say sorry so you don't sound like a total jerk. I am trying....SO hard to get my FUCKING TEMPER under control and I am obviously failing but I'm still TRYING AND IT'S SO HARD! Because....you try everything with this person, push and push for just any sort of feedback, and then surprise surprise, just like every other situation with them, they've got NOTHING. Just a lot of anger that they're ready to spit right back at you when you start to get upset.
God....I don't even know why it's a big deal. But it is. I was REALLY looking forward to this and she KNEW I was, for like...three weeks I was telling her about this and planning it and trying desperately to have her make SOME sort of commitment or ANYTHING other than the constant "I don't know."
Just an apology. Just to let me know that you recognize I'm dissapointed and that you are going to at least TRY to make things work, so that's it's not ALL pushed on me. Couldn't you have just tried to see past what it may have seemed like on the outside and see further, see that this was something I really wanted for more than just one reason? And that a week or even just hours beforehand when I try and get you to say WHAT TIME and WHERE and WHO'S DRIVING and all that crap that I'm not just being stupid or pushy or whatever. I'm trying to avoid situations like THIS.
fuck.
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And then you just SIT there and you don't even try. While they fucking bend over backwards trying to make things work and you just SIT THERE. I MEAN I MADE FUCKING PLANS. I ASKED FOR FUCKING CONFORMATIONS. I just wanted to go! And then nothing.
Not even an apology. Even if you don't mean it, maybe just say sorry so you don't sound like a total jerk. I am trying....SO hard to get my FUCKING TEMPER under control and I am obviously failing but I'm still TRYING AND IT'S SO HARD! Because....you try everything with this person, push and push for just any sort of feedback, and then surprise surprise, just like every other situation with them, they've got NOTHING. Just a lot of anger that they're ready to spit right back at you when you start to get upset.
God....I don't even know why it's a big deal. But it is. I was REALLY looking forward to this and she KNEW I was, for like...three weeks I was telling her about this and planning it and trying desperately to have her make SOME sort of commitment or ANYTHING other than the constant "I don't know."
Just an apology. Just to let me know that you recognize I'm dissapointed and that you are going to at least TRY to make things work, so that's it's not ALL pushed on me. Couldn't you have just tried to see past what it may have seemed like on the outside and see further, see that this was something I really wanted for more than just one reason? And that a week or even just hours beforehand when I try and get you to say WHAT TIME and WHERE and WHO'S DRIVING and all that crap that I'm not just being stupid or pushy or whatever. I'm trying to avoid situations like THIS.
fuck.
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.me.