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perhaps it's spring, or the fact that i know so many inspiring lovely people. either way, i have baby fever like a mother fucker. and maybe i don't even want to actually have a baby, or take care of one, but i feel such an overwhelming desire to be domestic. the past few days i spent some lovely time organizing my apartment, baking cupcakes for my friend tim's bday, and having meetings with dina about our bakery. i feel pretty grown up in the way i always pictured it. the only thing lacking that i actually wish i had was to be in a mature, loving relationship.
if you are still reading this after me making you barf with my sugar coated paragraph from above, then i thank you. i have just realized in recent months what i want, and for the most part those things are becoming a reality. and perhaps it's silly to say, but i would love to share this with someone. i haven't been this aware, and this ready for my future than ever before. i actually miss being in a relationship, and from dating around and finding what i want/don't want, i have focused my attention away from those i know that would cause an unhealthy relationship for me. i have stopped only looking for those "certain" types of boys. i actually stopped looking all together actually, and i know that someday, someone is just going to show up and we will be in full disgusting cutesy love together. so, it's not as if i can't be without someone, but it would be nice to be with someone.
what has spring done to me? i sound like a giddy school girl.
but this is what i have been up to:
wearing lots of bright colors and knee socks
trying out new cupcakes (the baby bar cupcake this month is vegan cookies and cream. customers can't get enough)
3 new consignment offers (two wedding cupcake towers, and one dozen lemon cakes for a girl that a boy has a crush on)
organizing a craft night and kickball sunday
having brunch with my friends
reading design magazines
making bear hats
going to as many local shows as i can fit in my schedule
planning a solo trip to portland in may
eating better and working out
double soy vanilla lattes and lavender matte
making an appointment to get my rabbit and polaroid camera tattoos