Thank God there's only a month left of this shit...
I really can't take too much more of this.
April has the strong possibility of sucking ROYALLY. Actually what the hell am I talking about it already has started out horribly and is only going to get worse from here on out.
As far as classes go, I'm getting my A in music, I'm gonna get a B at least in my Ed. class but I have no clue what the hell my grade is cuz he never tells us anything. Now my 2 math classes are what is going to fuck me over. In calc 3 I have 2 exams and a lab left, and possibly a homework or 2. Now that might seem alright to get decent grades on and pull a B out of that, but this shit that we're learning is the hardest stuff yet. Now my differential equations class I'm virtually failing. The prof. is being kind and putting me as a D but I'm failing that class miserably. That test that we had last week that I studied the entire week for I don't think I even got a 40 on.
We'll see, I'm gonna have to work my ass off just to stay afloat and pretty much break my neck to pull halfway decent grades. These next 3 weeks are either gonna make me or kill me.
To go along with that I don't think I've ever felt this mentally and even physically run-down before. It's at the point where every little thing can set me off or bother me and I hate it. I barely sleep 5 hours in a night and when I get a decent number of hours I usually wake up a few times now. Today I was completely out of it. I took 3 seperate naps, 4 actually if you include the one I took in class. I haven't even lifted yet this week because I just can't. I don't wanna drop a 60lb dumbell on my head trying for that extra rep, even though the thought is sometimes entertaining.
If it weren't for a few people I would have certainly snapped by now and probably did something stupid. The first person I wanna mention is Carly. Probably one of my best friends that I practically grew up with from our days at Mill Road, and then briefly at Stop and Shop, and our priceless lunch-dates on fridays which give me something to look forward to go home to. There is always a classic line, or a 'Carly-ism' like flipping me the thumb instead of the mmiddle finger trying to say "fuck you." Oh man, gonna miss you like crazy come June when you board that plane with a 1-way ticket to Arizona. :( <3333 you.
Secondly is Michelle. Babe, my fav. met fan, my partner in crime at Mill Road the last few years. You have always been there for me, even when we really don't get a chance to talk that much, it always puts a smile on my face when you sign on and we get a chance to 'chat.' Can't wait till the end of april on your next break and we can hang out. <33 you **MWAH**
The work situation is also good but even that is starting to bring its own wave of petty bullshit. GAH!! But fun times with me, Sid, Danielle, Lucia, Danielle's friend Jess, and Dave going to Applebees after work friday night. Funny shit happend there lol with paying full price and me getting a mozzeralla stick in my ear, and the food fight.
Oh man I dunno, thank God the Yankees are back on. Looking good so far, 2-0, both wins coming against the red sox. Another game tomorrow, and possibly the beach.
I need some fuckin sleep.
Night.
April has the strong possibility of sucking ROYALLY. Actually what the hell am I talking about it already has started out horribly and is only going to get worse from here on out.
As far as classes go, I'm getting my A in music, I'm gonna get a B at least in my Ed. class but I have no clue what the hell my grade is cuz he never tells us anything. Now my 2 math classes are what is going to fuck me over. In calc 3 I have 2 exams and a lab left, and possibly a homework or 2. Now that might seem alright to get decent grades on and pull a B out of that, but this shit that we're learning is the hardest stuff yet. Now my differential equations class I'm virtually failing. The prof. is being kind and putting me as a D but I'm failing that class miserably. That test that we had last week that I studied the entire week for I don't think I even got a 40 on.
We'll see, I'm gonna have to work my ass off just to stay afloat and pretty much break my neck to pull halfway decent grades. These next 3 weeks are either gonna make me or kill me.
To go along with that I don't think I've ever felt this mentally and even physically run-down before. It's at the point where every little thing can set me off or bother me and I hate it. I barely sleep 5 hours in a night and when I get a decent number of hours I usually wake up a few times now. Today I was completely out of it. I took 3 seperate naps, 4 actually if you include the one I took in class. I haven't even lifted yet this week because I just can't. I don't wanna drop a 60lb dumbell on my head trying for that extra rep, even though the thought is sometimes entertaining.
If it weren't for a few people I would have certainly snapped by now and probably did something stupid. The first person I wanna mention is Carly. Probably one of my best friends that I practically grew up with from our days at Mill Road, and then briefly at Stop and Shop, and our priceless lunch-dates on fridays which give me something to look forward to go home to. There is always a classic line, or a 'Carly-ism' like flipping me the thumb instead of the mmiddle finger trying to say "fuck you." Oh man, gonna miss you like crazy come June when you board that plane with a 1-way ticket to Arizona. :( <3333 you.
Secondly is Michelle. Babe, my fav. met fan, my partner in crime at Mill Road the last few years. You have always been there for me, even when we really don't get a chance to talk that much, it always puts a smile on my face when you sign on and we get a chance to 'chat.' Can't wait till the end of april on your next break and we can hang out. <33 you **MWAH**
The work situation is also good but even that is starting to bring its own wave of petty bullshit. GAH!! But fun times with me, Sid, Danielle, Lucia, Danielle's friend Jess, and Dave going to Applebees after work friday night. Funny shit happend there lol with paying full price and me getting a mozzeralla stick in my ear, and the food fight.
Oh man I dunno, thank God the Yankees are back on. Looking good so far, 2-0, both wins coming against the red sox. Another game tomorrow, and possibly the beach.
I need some fuckin sleep.
Night.