Rumor: Fact
Got fired today. Eh, I'm not that sad. Okay, I AM sad. I will miss the comeraderie and the people. I've been there nearly five years. Hard to put that behind you.
What happened? Well, suffice to say, I made one too many "bad business" decisions. I was on an action plan for that and so they termed me when I made a bad remark to an employee this week.
It was also that the big boss got me so worked about my own work that I stopped looking at the work of others and nuturing others and therefore lost the respect of my team. I just realized that one. I stopped caring about how the people on my team were doing because I was so worried about how I was doing. (Because I knew I wasn't doing well.) I cared too much about doing the big bosses infernal paperwork. I will say it was every bit driven by her and not by me, but I allowed it to happen and lost the focus.
It doesn't matter. I couldn't work there anymore anyhow. I knew it and she knew it. It was wrecking me. I had become hopeless, dejected, depressed, anxious and anxiety-ridden. I had high-blood pressure and stomach pains. I was working 13 hour days. I was not sleeping and I had started to drink every night. These are all very, very bad things. Stepping down to a Sup I? Would not have helped. And I really didn't want to take calls again.
About sums it up. Not that sad, but terribly sad.
I'm headed to careerbuilder.com and every other place on the net. I'm also going to the unemployment office (cause free money!). I wonder what happens to my 401K money? I'll have to find out now. *sigh* Least I'll remember to do the taxes I've been meaning to do all month.
I'm going to go watch some reality show or other. :)
What happened? Well, suffice to say, I made one too many "bad business" decisions. I was on an action plan for that and so they termed me when I made a bad remark to an employee this week.
It was also that the big boss got me so worked about my own work that I stopped looking at the work of others and nuturing others and therefore lost the respect of my team. I just realized that one. I stopped caring about how the people on my team were doing because I was so worried about how I was doing. (Because I knew I wasn't doing well.) I cared too much about doing the big bosses infernal paperwork. I will say it was every bit driven by her and not by me, but I allowed it to happen and lost the focus.
It doesn't matter. I couldn't work there anymore anyhow. I knew it and she knew it. It was wrecking me. I had become hopeless, dejected, depressed, anxious and anxiety-ridden. I had high-blood pressure and stomach pains. I was working 13 hour days. I was not sleeping and I had started to drink every night. These are all very, very bad things. Stepping down to a Sup I? Would not have helped. And I really didn't want to take calls again.
About sums it up. Not that sad, but terribly sad.
I'm headed to careerbuilder.com and every other place on the net. I'm also going to the unemployment office (cause free money!). I wonder what happens to my 401K money? I'll have to find out now. *sigh* Least I'll remember to do the taxes I've been meaning to do all month.
I'm going to go watch some reality show or other. :)