Songs
I've been missing my mom a lot lately. Surprisingly, it's been harder the last few weeks than it was on the anniversary at the beginning of October.
The Saturday before last I went to an Amy Grant concert with my good friend Heidi, who I've known since high school. Before the concert we ate dinner at the casino buffet and we were talking about how she needs a babysitter for New Years Eve. For the first time since right after mom died, I forgot for a second that she was gone. I thought, "oh, Mom would totally love to watch her!"
Heidi and I have been going to Amy Grant concerts every time she's in town for the last 12 years or so, and this was the first time I didn't know many of the songs. I didn't start hearing of her or her music until she started singing pop, though Heidi has listened to her forever. This time the set list didn't include any songs written after 1984 so it was interesting for me. I still had fun, because Amy was really into it and the music was still good. I just didn't know any of the songs.
But during the encore she played some new stuff that hasn't been recorded yet, including a song called Threaten Me With Heaven. She told the story of her ex father-in-law and how he got really sick last year. He and his daughter went to an appointment with the doctor and she was really stressed and worried that it might be bad news. He shrugged and said, "What are they going to do? Threaten me with heaven?" When Amy heard the story, she turned that into a song.
I bawled through the whole thing because that was Mom's basic attitude (at least outwardly - I am not 100% sure she wasn't scared, but she'd said my whole life that she wasn't afraid of dying and I have to believe her for my own sanity) during her illness and even when the doctor came and told us she had a few hours left. It was hard because outwardly, at the moment he said that, she didn't look or seem any sicker than she had during the prior three months. Yet somehow he knew it was coming, and she accepted it quickly. It gave me a lot of peace then and it still does now.
The song hasn't been recorded yet (at least, that I've been able to find) but Heidi found the lyrics and sent them to me. It's especially hitting me right now because my aunt, Mom's sister, is still fighting cancer and isn't doing well right now. Seeing my cousin and their family go through what we did last year really sucks.
Threaten Me With Heaven by Amy Grant 2008
I can see the tears upon your face
No hiding place
You're afraid that soon I will be gone
Time will still go on
You're searching for the answers you can't find
All in good time
What's the worst thing that can happen
If they say my time is through
Can they take away the love or the years I've shared
with you
What's the worst thing that can happen
What's the worst that they can do
They can threaten me with heaven if they want to
Threaten me with heaven is all they can do
Threaten me with heaven
I'll be waiting on you
I hear angels through the window pane
Calling my name
And someday when they carve that name in stone
I won't be alone
If by chance a miracle appears
I'll dry your tears
What's the worst thing that can happen
If they say our time is through
Can they take away the love or the years I've shared
with you
What's the worst thing that can happen
What's the worst that they can do
They can threaten me with heaven if they want to
Threaten me with heaven is all they can do
Threaten me with heaven
Threaten me with heaven I'll be waiting on you
The Saturday before last I went to an Amy Grant concert with my good friend Heidi, who I've known since high school. Before the concert we ate dinner at the casino buffet and we were talking about how she needs a babysitter for New Years Eve. For the first time since right after mom died, I forgot for a second that she was gone. I thought, "oh, Mom would totally love to watch her!"
Heidi and I have been going to Amy Grant concerts every time she's in town for the last 12 years or so, and this was the first time I didn't know many of the songs. I didn't start hearing of her or her music until she started singing pop, though Heidi has listened to her forever. This time the set list didn't include any songs written after 1984 so it was interesting for me. I still had fun, because Amy was really into it and the music was still good. I just didn't know any of the songs.
But during the encore she played some new stuff that hasn't been recorded yet, including a song called Threaten Me With Heaven. She told the story of her ex father-in-law and how he got really sick last year. He and his daughter went to an appointment with the doctor and she was really stressed and worried that it might be bad news. He shrugged and said, "What are they going to do? Threaten me with heaven?" When Amy heard the story, she turned that into a song.
I bawled through the whole thing because that was Mom's basic attitude (at least outwardly - I am not 100% sure she wasn't scared, but she'd said my whole life that she wasn't afraid of dying and I have to believe her for my own sanity) during her illness and even when the doctor came and told us she had a few hours left. It was hard because outwardly, at the moment he said that, she didn't look or seem any sicker than she had during the prior three months. Yet somehow he knew it was coming, and she accepted it quickly. It gave me a lot of peace then and it still does now.
The song hasn't been recorded yet (at least, that I've been able to find) but Heidi found the lyrics and sent them to me. It's especially hitting me right now because my aunt, Mom's sister, is still fighting cancer and isn't doing well right now. Seeing my cousin and their family go through what we did last year really sucks.
Threaten Me With Heaven by Amy Grant 2008
I can see the tears upon your face
No hiding place
You're afraid that soon I will be gone
Time will still go on
You're searching for the answers you can't find
All in good time
What's the worst thing that can happen
If they say my time is through
Can they take away the love or the years I've shared
with you
What's the worst thing that can happen
What's the worst that they can do
They can threaten me with heaven if they want to
Threaten me with heaven is all they can do
Threaten me with heaven
I'll be waiting on you
I hear angels through the window pane
Calling my name
And someday when they carve that name in stone
I won't be alone
If by chance a miracle appears
I'll dry your tears
What's the worst thing that can happen
If they say our time is through
Can they take away the love or the years I've shared
with you
What's the worst thing that can happen
What's the worst that they can do
They can threaten me with heaven if they want to
Threaten me with heaven is all they can do
Threaten me with heaven
Threaten me with heaven I'll be waiting on you