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I wonder if spent less time trying to find out who I am and just... did stuff... would I become more of the person I'm trying to find? It's hard not to philosophise everything though, I'm doing it now. Hmmm.
Sometimes I swear I think I'm the parent in our house. I find myself thinking about subtle ways to get through to whoever needs to be gotten through to this week rather than just yelling. I like to think that quiet carefully selected words are always more effective than screaming anything in the heat of the moment, the 'I'm not angry, just disappointed' tactic. Then again I'm beginning, well not just beginning actually, to think that things are past the point of no return for our family. We're building up a nice litle momentum that can't be reversed without a bang. We can always try to make our environment a little more pleasant I suppose, even for our own peace of mind. Kind of similar to the reasoning behind my looking forward to maths night classes, I want to feel like I'm doing something. Of course tech is keeping me occupied, but we're still at the introductory, not really doing any real work stage, whereas I get the feeling I'll be thrown in at the deep end in maths. But yeah, its about time everyone else actually realised my point about changing things rather than humoring me then continuing to do things their way. It seems like a good story to the rest of the world, 'I just get on with things, be sensible and ignore the drunken blabber' But yeah right, I've been guilty of it in the past I know but I'm not the one succumbing to the arguments anymore. Yeah, its hard, but get over it. I have and its all I've ever really known. I dunno, maybe that's why I'm not as easily, or publicly defeated by this. I'm not encouraging bottling things up, its just not productive to release all your anger in a massive explosion aimed at one person, especially one who all you want to do is help.
Meh, maybe I'll just go get pissed and forget all my troubles... oh wait, that's why I have so many troubles.
Advice: Don't drink to avoid issues. (Duh lad)
It is quite hard to get the balance right between healthy distractions and ignoring the issue altogether though. *Head fried* I think I'll go indulge in some healthy distraction for the mean time........like........ seeing The Cult this Saturday :D YAY.
Laters.
Sometimes I swear I think I'm the parent in our house. I find myself thinking about subtle ways to get through to whoever needs to be gotten through to this week rather than just yelling. I like to think that quiet carefully selected words are always more effective than screaming anything in the heat of the moment, the 'I'm not angry, just disappointed' tactic. Then again I'm beginning, well not just beginning actually, to think that things are past the point of no return for our family. We're building up a nice litle momentum that can't be reversed without a bang. We can always try to make our environment a little more pleasant I suppose, even for our own peace of mind. Kind of similar to the reasoning behind my looking forward to maths night classes, I want to feel like I'm doing something. Of course tech is keeping me occupied, but we're still at the introductory, not really doing any real work stage, whereas I get the feeling I'll be thrown in at the deep end in maths. But yeah, its about time everyone else actually realised my point about changing things rather than humoring me then continuing to do things their way. It seems like a good story to the rest of the world, 'I just get on with things, be sensible and ignore the drunken blabber' But yeah right, I've been guilty of it in the past I know but I'm not the one succumbing to the arguments anymore. Yeah, its hard, but get over it. I have and its all I've ever really known. I dunno, maybe that's why I'm not as easily, or publicly defeated by this. I'm not encouraging bottling things up, its just not productive to release all your anger in a massive explosion aimed at one person, especially one who all you want to do is help.
Meh, maybe I'll just go get pissed and forget all my troubles... oh wait, that's why I have so many troubles.
Advice: Don't drink to avoid issues. (Duh lad)
It is quite hard to get the balance right between healthy distractions and ignoring the issue altogether though. *Head fried* I think I'll go indulge in some healthy distraction for the mean time........like........ seeing The Cult this Saturday :D YAY.
Laters.