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Apr 27, 2005 18:40

Holy moly. My mind has been full of a bunch of things lately.

I don't really like any boys right now. I'll let them come to me. I don't even really want a boyfriend right now because it'll just stress me out.

Band...eh. I don't really think my heart is set in it. Is it just going to be a bunch of time i'm going to waste? I really don't want to wear myself down again with having to do tennis and band. Obviously tennis is above band on my priority list and everything. I just don't know. I need more time to think. I just don't think band will be any fun at all, and I honestly don't really have a reason to be in it right now.

Tennis...oooh totally had a meltdown on Sunday but it all got better. Kelly and I had a long talk on Monday about it all. Well, I obviously need to work on my mental game because I let things get to me just like that. I will be down on the bottom because of one game. Just one...and it doesn't even count. We're all there to work on our game..I guess it isn't really about winning or losing...that's all I was thinking about.
Kelly says I will play in college if I keep this up.I still have two years left in highschool..thats a ton of time. Now, depending on how hard I work and how much I focus on all this..yeah that's all on me, and that will determine how far I get. I need to get my act together.

I'm playing in a doubles tournament on Saturday w/ Krista. That should be a lot of fun. Our fees are going towards the Watkins Memorial tennis fees for next year for their pay to play.

I'm also playing in the qualifier down in Lancaster in a couple weeks. I'm pretty nervous...but luckily I'm in the south-central division and most of the girls I know that play will be playing in the 18's and im still in the 16s lol.

My dad's been complaining about my tennis bill a lot. Maybe if that was the only thing that he had to pay for then maybe he wouldn't complain as much? thats another reason for quitting band...money. Although my sister will be in it next year. Maybe we should both pull out. I dont know. whatever.

Anyway. actually I lied up above. I do kind of like this guy....pretty gorgeous...and we're supposed to start hitting soon so I don't know we'll see what happens.:-)

I have to go excercise. ciao.
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