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For once I'm using this mood and I actually mean it.
[ Filter: Private ]
Things have been... Really bad for me lately. Maybe more than just lately. Maybe for a really long time, I don't know. I'm not sure.
Regardless, I've been acting stupid because of it. I've been saying things I don't mean. I've been lying. I've been mean. Because I thought I didn't belong here or I didn't deserve this.
My plane flew over Rome on the way back to London. Or at least, what's left of Rome. Maybe this vacation really was good for me like I'd been hoping. Maybe it's reminded me of the important things.
I don't want London to be like Rome. I want London to survive, I want to survive. I want this war to be over and done with so I can hopefully go on like a normal human being.
I want everyone to be happy.
So maybe... Maybe I've found a reason to fight. Before it was just "you're destined to do this blah blah blah". My heart couldn't be in it. People killed my family and countless other innocent people but I never really understood what I was fighting for.
I'm fighting to stay alive. I'm fighting for everyone to stay alive.
And I love London too much to see it die.
[ Filter: London Seals ]
I'm sorry. You probably don't even know why I'm apologizing but I'm sorry.
I'm here and I finally get it. I won't let Westminster happen again.
[ Filter: Private ]
Things have been... Really bad for me lately. Maybe more than just lately. Maybe for a really long time, I don't know. I'm not sure.
Regardless, I've been acting stupid because of it. I've been saying things I don't mean. I've been lying. I've been mean. Because I thought I didn't belong here or I didn't deserve this.
My plane flew over Rome on the way back to London. Or at least, what's left of Rome. Maybe this vacation really was good for me like I'd been hoping. Maybe it's reminded me of the important things.
I don't want London to be like Rome. I want London to survive, I want to survive. I want this war to be over and done with so I can hopefully go on like a normal human being.
I want everyone to be happy.
So maybe... Maybe I've found a reason to fight. Before it was just "you're destined to do this blah blah blah". My heart couldn't be in it. People killed my family and countless other innocent people but I never really understood what I was fighting for.
I'm fighting to stay alive. I'm fighting for everyone to stay alive.
And I love London too much to see it die.
[ Filter: London Seals ]
I'm sorry. You probably don't even know why I'm apologizing but I'm sorry.
I'm here and I finally get it. I won't let Westminster happen again.