"why my husband killed my best friend"
that's ripped straight from the headlines of cosmo this month. i haven't read that particular article yet, but i must admit that i'm curious...
no word yet about the job. ::sighs:: aren't they aware that this is slowly killing me?! ah, to have a job...
warning: you may wish to avoid the sentimental...
so this whole graduation thing is really real, isn't it? for the past however many days (okay, this entire school year), i haven't been able to get past my excitement to move on with my life, and now that graduation is 14 days away, the finality of it is setting in. i'm really going to be finished with school forever in less than a week. i will have a piece of paper saying "i'm done" in just two (or however long it takes them to send it to my father). i will never write/stress a paper at SU again. i will never make the decision to skip a lame class in favor of sleep again. i will never have to come up with a ridiculous excuse not to do my homework again. i'm graduating from college. damn. when did that happen?
i've come to realize what an amazing choice syracuse was for me. of course i've made good friends and great memories, that much i expected. i didn't expect that it would always get colder and it would snow in april. those were surprises. lucky me.
what i didn't count on was the way that i've changed. i'm a completely different person now from when i left high school, but i didn't really see that until this year. it's very strange, but i've grown up. i've learned to live on my own (for as much as anyone really does that in college). i've learned that no matter how difficult school or relationships or situations get, i can handle it. i may break down here and there, but that just makes me forge on. i know i wouldn't have believed that about myself four years ago.
and i suppose that going to school anywhere away from home would have done that to me, but syracuse just fits. when the campus comes out of hibernation in the spring and psi u breaks out the outdoor speakers, i realize that no other place feels quite like this for me. quite like home. and i have to smile. and laugh that i ever considered leaving before it got good. wow, i'm going to miss it here. ::hides face in shame:: it's getting harder to say it's over.
having said all of that though, i hope i end up feeling the same way about manhattan. i'm so excited to try someplace new.