Colorado isn't home anymore.
I've been here a few weeks and I realized... Colorado isn't home anymore.
I don't know if it's winter or what, but I had less motivation to go places. The only places I want to go are places I can go to with my family or my best friend.
I still don't have my license, and I think it's starting to get on my best friend's nerves, her constantly having to drive me everywhere. I guess I could get it, but problem number one- it's been nearly three years since the last time I drove. I've been thinking about relearning how to drive once I get back to DC. Maybe this summer... winter isn't exactly a good time to relearn driving skills.
DC really is home to me now. When my best friend was asking me what I liked doing while I was out, what came to mind was wandering around town, or going to museums... stuff I did in DC. She said that she and two of her friends all gave each other rides. But I can't do that. I'm worthless to her. Maybe this is why she hasn't talked as much about meeting up and doing stuff while I'm home...
I can't do as much for her and it's killing me.
When I was seventeen, I got mad at her for some reason and decided I wanted to kill off our friendship. I tried to turn her against me, but things held out for whatever reason and things got much better. If she really doesn't value me that much, maybe I should try what I tried at seventeen, except with a different tactic: ignoring her.
I do want things to work, but if she isn't as invested in it as much as before... Plus I've earned her trust as a good friend. I'd hate to give that up.
I don't even know anymore.
I don't know if it's winter or what, but I had less motivation to go places. The only places I want to go are places I can go to with my family or my best friend.
I still don't have my license, and I think it's starting to get on my best friend's nerves, her constantly having to drive me everywhere. I guess I could get it, but problem number one- it's been nearly three years since the last time I drove. I've been thinking about relearning how to drive once I get back to DC. Maybe this summer... winter isn't exactly a good time to relearn driving skills.
DC really is home to me now. When my best friend was asking me what I liked doing while I was out, what came to mind was wandering around town, or going to museums... stuff I did in DC. She said that she and two of her friends all gave each other rides. But I can't do that. I'm worthless to her. Maybe this is why she hasn't talked as much about meeting up and doing stuff while I'm home...
I can't do as much for her and it's killing me.
When I was seventeen, I got mad at her for some reason and decided I wanted to kill off our friendship. I tried to turn her against me, but things held out for whatever reason and things got much better. If she really doesn't value me that much, maybe I should try what I tried at seventeen, except with a different tactic: ignoring her.
I do want things to work, but if she isn't as invested in it as much as before... Plus I've earned her trust as a good friend. I'd hate to give that up.
I don't even know anymore.