And yesterday I though I'd be fine
Yesterday I felt strong, like I could really live by myself rather than lie to myself or other people about feelings and emotions. Ricks been absolutely wonderful to me but there became many issues that I couldn't see past, and others did not help my decision.
First Andrew sends me a text " Hey im sorry dont hate me I do want to be with u. please give me another chance"
Great, thanks asshole, treat me like shit and then a few weeks later try to suck up again.... Goddamn I hate him... So much like Ryan, both of them have six years of history with me and both of them always seem to sweep in to squeltch out any happiness I may have made for myself with someone else...
Ha... So then later I speak to someone from a few months ago, who also asks for another chance.. I want to make you dinner blah blah blah...
With all my mixed emotions I went to Rick, because honestly, I don't want him to get anymore attached if I am having second thoughts.... because really, hes a great guy and really cares about me and I just didn't want to hurt him any worse.
Well today has totally sucked. I think I'm getting sick again... and I'm just am emotional wreck. Honestly I just wantto hide away in a hole.
I hope this weekend turns up something good.. Got the show I'm going to... I dunno.. I feel like I'm going to be sick.... Someone help
I really don't want the depression to come back.....
First Andrew sends me a text " Hey im sorry dont hate me I do want to be with u. please give me another chance"
Great, thanks asshole, treat me like shit and then a few weeks later try to suck up again.... Goddamn I hate him... So much like Ryan, both of them have six years of history with me and both of them always seem to sweep in to squeltch out any happiness I may have made for myself with someone else...
Ha... So then later I speak to someone from a few months ago, who also asks for another chance.. I want to make you dinner blah blah blah...
With all my mixed emotions I went to Rick, because honestly, I don't want him to get anymore attached if I am having second thoughts.... because really, hes a great guy and really cares about me and I just didn't want to hurt him any worse.
Well today has totally sucked. I think I'm getting sick again... and I'm just am emotional wreck. Honestly I just wantto hide away in a hole.
I hope this weekend turns up something good.. Got the show I'm going to... I dunno.. I feel like I'm going to be sick.... Someone help
I really don't want the depression to come back.....