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I want to collapse and cry and take that nice little silver and make things seem ok for a few minutes... but i can't... i can't ask him for them and he hasn't put them back... i can't say anything to him because he's already upset and i can't deal with upsetting him more. i want him to know how much i love him and fear every day that i'm going to lose him soon.
i can't let on that halloween still crosses my mind on more occasions than it should.
i just keep thinking that i should have gone through with it.
i still consider it.
i want to be gone so i don't have to fear losing.
i don't know what i want.
i can't let on that halloween still crosses my mind on more occasions than it should.
i just keep thinking that i should have gone through with it.
i still consider it.
i want to be gone so i don't have to fear losing.
i don't know what i want.