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it's 2am... and i'm sitting here ready to burst into tears.
i don't know what is bothering me. i don't know what to think or what to feel.
i keep having this thing where my fingers go numb on one hand... or when i look up my neck gets stiff and it's hard to breathe.
right now i'm just fighting urges.
i want to have someone to lie with me right now and just hold me until i cry myself to sleep.
someone who loves me for me....
and accepts me as i am
but in the same breathe i don't think i could ever trust anyone that much to let them get that close to me.
i just want for things to work themselves out quickly.
let me leave my mark so i can leave for good please...
i beg of you.
any and all gods who are listening.
i don't know what is bothering me. i don't know what to think or what to feel.
i keep having this thing where my fingers go numb on one hand... or when i look up my neck gets stiff and it's hard to breathe.
right now i'm just fighting urges.
i want to have someone to lie with me right now and just hold me until i cry myself to sleep.
someone who loves me for me....
and accepts me as i am
but in the same breathe i don't think i could ever trust anyone that much to let them get that close to me.
i just want for things to work themselves out quickly.
let me leave my mark so i can leave for good please...
i beg of you.
any and all gods who are listening.